rave23
Bluelighter
Hello valued reader of the bluelight trip reports,
thank you for joining in and sharing my first experience with said substance, Trimipramine very closely related to Doxepin. Now i would not call this a 'trip' report, rather an account of my experience.
What is that stuff, why have i never heard of it? Well, that's a good question. I personally know zero about that stuff, and what i read on wikipedia was the first bit of information ever revealed to me.
I think in retrospective it was foolish to take something so little known about so lightly, but i was desperate.
Let me explain my situation: I wasn't able to sleep and looked for the cure. I wasn't planing to take this more than once, so i didn't waste much time thinking about it. To give you some kind of background on how i got my hands on this rather exotic compound: I once got a stash of medications from a friend of mine when he passed away. He was stationary at a psychward, got released, drugged up and killed himself a coupple of days later. There were all sorts of antipsychotics in there that i all gave away or used for comedowns, and that was the only thing left as i refused to take it since i never heard anything about it.
I was without sleep for 72 hours and was pondering on how i could induce sleep, as all other things failed that usually worked. That includes benzos, pot, booze, more pot, and then some more pot. One of these always put me out, but for some strange reason, this time it didn't. So i looked up all i could find, and found out it is 'highly sedative'. Whatever that means, right? Since i had 100mgs tabs i figured 25mgs wouldn't hurt one way or the other, since it's a small dose and a one time thing, and my last dose of anything was well 24 hours behind me!
So down the hatch it went, chased by some water at around 6:45pm. I got struck by a feeling of fear 5 minutes later, but decided to calm the fuck down and go to bed, watch some TV and get my sleepy mood on, since that was all i really cared about at the moment. Nothing much happened for the first hour or so, and then things went weird.
First thing i noticed was a change in visual perception. You know how you always remember what you have seen like a second before and how everything seems to be in some sort of "buffer", and every image is connected with the previous one? That was totally fucked up. I was not able to put the thing i was looking at into some sort of context. I noticed that when i was reaching for my water, i reached for my soda instead, but couldn't stop my mind from grabbing the soda while i decided to pick up the water. Weird feeling really. Not much sleepyness here.
I decide to take a walk around the house and find something else to drink, juice perhaps. I noticed some sort of motor impairment, but nothing serious. Again, it seemed like my mind was telling my body what to do, and once it started to execute the given task it was unable to stop itself from doing so or making some change.
I thought about going to the bathroom, noticed myself walking towards it and i couldn't tell myself to not go in there. My body would do it anyway. It felt much like some sort of mental straight jacket. At that point i thought just lying down was the best idea. I noticed how i lost my vision in a weird way, and i was quite concerned at that point. It was like every image my eyes percieved went totally to the wrong random place in my head, but not where it should go, into that center of logic that would put what i see into some context. I was seeing my environment, but didn't know what to do with it. This was somewhat funny, but i was highly concerned at the moment. Lying down and closing my eyes proved much relief.
At this poin i noticed something: Nothing. There was... well... nothing. When there should have been some kinda thought, or maybe train of thought wandering through my head, there was none. I felt like someone put a lock in front of my brain, and it was in there somehow doing it's own thing. That was somehow a relief, since i got a sense of relaxation out of it that was verry enjoyable, but concerning at the moment. So i was wondering when the lights would finally go out, but then again, thinking seemed impossible. Like... mhh... i have no clue how to describe it. There was a voice or a narator, saying my thoughts, repeating them over and over again, but they did not seem to affect my thinking at all. A highly weird state of mind.
I had a bad cotton mouth, and got out of bed at 9:30pm to get some more water, since i gulped down about 2l aready. I was hoping not to piss myself, so i attempted to pee.
Well, let me tell you, going to the bathroom never seemed that impossible. i couldn't convince myself that i had to go to the bathroom. I felt like my body was shutting down on me, and operating on a verry instinctive and primitive level, keeping itself alive, but nothing more. And i think my body realized that it needed two things: Food and sleep. I really didn't want to get food, but my body did it anyway. I somehow managed it to warm up some food and eating it without thinking about it. It was like my mind was gone, crossed Jordan or something.
After i got food i went to bed and completely blacked out. Like someone capped my spinal cord or something. I remember feeling "ogghhhhoohhhsh here it comes..." found a place to sit and then the lights went out.
I woke up 11 hours later, feeling extremely well rested, and gratefull for that portion of sleep (or time spend unconscious) i got.
While i had to think twice about repeating that expreience, it sure did it's thing. I attribute a lot of the odd effects to my 3 day sleep deprivation, but then again, i don't know for sure.
I'd say stay away from it unless you actually need it. I can't see this medication being any use in my list of things to stash, maybe i find use for it one day. I much prefer smoking pot untill i pass out![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
So long, thanks for reading,
Rave23
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explevel_firsttime
thank you for joining in and sharing my first experience with said substance, Trimipramine very closely related to Doxepin. Now i would not call this a 'trip' report, rather an account of my experience.
What is that stuff, why have i never heard of it? Well, that's a good question. I personally know zero about that stuff, and what i read on wikipedia was the first bit of information ever revealed to me.
I think in retrospective it was foolish to take something so little known about so lightly, but i was desperate.
Let me explain my situation: I wasn't able to sleep and looked for the cure. I wasn't planing to take this more than once, so i didn't waste much time thinking about it. To give you some kind of background on how i got my hands on this rather exotic compound: I once got a stash of medications from a friend of mine when he passed away. He was stationary at a psychward, got released, drugged up and killed himself a coupple of days later. There were all sorts of antipsychotics in there that i all gave away or used for comedowns, and that was the only thing left as i refused to take it since i never heard anything about it.
I was without sleep for 72 hours and was pondering on how i could induce sleep, as all other things failed that usually worked. That includes benzos, pot, booze, more pot, and then some more pot. One of these always put me out, but for some strange reason, this time it didn't. So i looked up all i could find, and found out it is 'highly sedative'. Whatever that means, right? Since i had 100mgs tabs i figured 25mgs wouldn't hurt one way or the other, since it's a small dose and a one time thing, and my last dose of anything was well 24 hours behind me!
So down the hatch it went, chased by some water at around 6:45pm. I got struck by a feeling of fear 5 minutes later, but decided to calm the fuck down and go to bed, watch some TV and get my sleepy mood on, since that was all i really cared about at the moment. Nothing much happened for the first hour or so, and then things went weird.
First thing i noticed was a change in visual perception. You know how you always remember what you have seen like a second before and how everything seems to be in some sort of "buffer", and every image is connected with the previous one? That was totally fucked up. I was not able to put the thing i was looking at into some sort of context. I noticed that when i was reaching for my water, i reached for my soda instead, but couldn't stop my mind from grabbing the soda while i decided to pick up the water. Weird feeling really. Not much sleepyness here.
I decide to take a walk around the house and find something else to drink, juice perhaps. I noticed some sort of motor impairment, but nothing serious. Again, it seemed like my mind was telling my body what to do, and once it started to execute the given task it was unable to stop itself from doing so or making some change.
I thought about going to the bathroom, noticed myself walking towards it and i couldn't tell myself to not go in there. My body would do it anyway. It felt much like some sort of mental straight jacket. At that point i thought just lying down was the best idea. I noticed how i lost my vision in a weird way, and i was quite concerned at that point. It was like every image my eyes percieved went totally to the wrong random place in my head, but not where it should go, into that center of logic that would put what i see into some context. I was seeing my environment, but didn't know what to do with it. This was somewhat funny, but i was highly concerned at the moment. Lying down and closing my eyes proved much relief.
At this poin i noticed something: Nothing. There was... well... nothing. When there should have been some kinda thought, or maybe train of thought wandering through my head, there was none. I felt like someone put a lock in front of my brain, and it was in there somehow doing it's own thing. That was somehow a relief, since i got a sense of relaxation out of it that was verry enjoyable, but concerning at the moment. So i was wondering when the lights would finally go out, but then again, thinking seemed impossible. Like... mhh... i have no clue how to describe it. There was a voice or a narator, saying my thoughts, repeating them over and over again, but they did not seem to affect my thinking at all. A highly weird state of mind.
I had a bad cotton mouth, and got out of bed at 9:30pm to get some more water, since i gulped down about 2l aready. I was hoping not to piss myself, so i attempted to pee.
Well, let me tell you, going to the bathroom never seemed that impossible. i couldn't convince myself that i had to go to the bathroom. I felt like my body was shutting down on me, and operating on a verry instinctive and primitive level, keeping itself alive, but nothing more. And i think my body realized that it needed two things: Food and sleep. I really didn't want to get food, but my body did it anyway. I somehow managed it to warm up some food and eating it without thinking about it. It was like my mind was gone, crossed Jordan or something.
After i got food i went to bed and completely blacked out. Like someone capped my spinal cord or something. I remember feeling "ogghhhhoohhhsh here it comes..." found a place to sit and then the lights went out.
I woke up 11 hours later, feeling extremely well rested, and gratefull for that portion of sleep (or time spend unconscious) i got.
While i had to think twice about repeating that expreience, it sure did it's thing. I attribute a lot of the odd effects to my 3 day sleep deprivation, but then again, i don't know for sure.
I'd say stay away from it unless you actually need it. I can't see this medication being any use in my list of things to stash, maybe i find use for it one day. I much prefer smoking pot untill i pass out
So long, thanks for reading,
Rave23
substancecode_trimipramine
substancecode_pharms
categorycode_solo
categorycode_indoors
categorycode_recreational
categorycode_positive
explevel_firsttime
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