SaosinEngaged
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- Oct 25, 2010
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My other issue with dope is having absolutely no fucking clue how much to take. I'm definitely tolerant to opiates, but heroin is a whole different ball game and I'm not in this one to OD. I tried about a full bag in my experience above, no idea if that was a big or small dose. Didn't feel good, made me feel heavy and dysphoric. I didn't take that all at once, I titrated up from a finger nail like line. And because every place has different bag sizes (I've heard), who the fuck knows how much "one bag" of my local shit even is. <-- This is my major issue with H. I'm anal and like knowing exactly how much of substance X is going into my body. I don't like being in the dark, I chalk that up as to one of the reasons I still walk this earth, while a lot of people I've known do not.
And because I'm unfamiliar with the substance, I have no metric of knowing if I should have taken more, or had taken too much.
It's one of the reasons I have such a strong love affair with Oxycodone. I know exactly how it will affect me at what dose, how much I can push it, how to manipulate a lower amount of the substance to work for me, etc. It's almost like becoming an expert on a certain chemical's effect on your body.
I just completely lacked this with heroin. It was foreign, slightly scary, and unpredictable.
And because of the government propaganda hate machine on all things heroin, I have to rely on some douche bag making the shit not to put something in there that would probably kill me, like fentanyl (had a good friend go from that one). So yeah, I'm clearly a jaded fuck, but it's frustrating not being able to use a good opiate partially because of how shady the whole process is and difficult to figure out just how much you're doing.
And because I'm unfamiliar with the substance, I have no metric of knowing if I should have taken more, or had taken too much.
It's one of the reasons I have such a strong love affair with Oxycodone. I know exactly how it will affect me at what dose, how much I can push it, how to manipulate a lower amount of the substance to work for me, etc. It's almost like becoming an expert on a certain chemical's effect on your body.
I just completely lacked this with heroin. It was foreign, slightly scary, and unpredictable.
And because of the government propaganda hate machine on all things heroin, I have to rely on some douche bag making the shit not to put something in there that would probably kill me, like fentanyl (had a good friend go from that one). So yeah, I'm clearly a jaded fuck, but it's frustrating not being able to use a good opiate partially because of how shady the whole process is and difficult to figure out just how much you're doing.
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