Trial And Error

I know this is TDS, so I'm sorry if what I'm about to say is a little out of line:

I think this is turning into a giant cry for attention. OP posts about feeling shitty and miserable, ignores anything and everything we tell them, and then posts more about feeling shitty and miserable. You are young, it will get better, we have all told you that, and all of us have gone through some shitty situations in our lives, being very alone. I assure you, in college for example, I'm sure you'll find your niche. TDS is here to give support, but OP just keeps saying "no you're wrong, ______ " and this thread seems to be going nowhere. OP, ask us for advice about situations, or at least thank us for our opinions, I'm getting irritated watching you not even be willing to listen.
 
im listening, im just saying that ive listened to that before and it ended badly. I feel very sorry for you if you think i would say these things for attention. I dont, this is just who i am.
 
im listening, im just saying that ive listened to that before and it ended badly. I feel very sorry for you if you think i would say these things for attention. I dont, this is just who i am.

"Listening" means more than just hearing what we're saying. I understand you're depressed and feel hopeless, but if you really truly do want support and help (which was the point of you posting this thread, correct?) then you've gotta accept the support and help of those of us who reply!
 
k 1. yes ima heard headed teen
2. i say that and i mean it
3. i didnt post here for help or support i posted here as a place to vent.
 
thanks, heres something i forgot to mention: i dont believe in love, happiness, marriage, happy endings, god&religion, life. Good things never happen to good ppl. Im not a good person but just saying. Thanks so much, but i dunno.

I was the same way when I was younger. You may never find love in your life, and I don't blame you for not believing in it, nor happiness either. Trust me when I say it is a possibility!

You have something to live for. You may not know it yet, and it may seem you never will, but that is not true.

thanks, but i really do deserve to die. And i dont want anyone to feel bad for me, alot of ppl think im stupid, but screw them. I dont have anyone or anything, n i dont love. I cant just start, and i dont plan on it.

"Deserving" to die is a subjective thing. The fact is, everyone will eventually die. But you deserve to live until you die naturally and not by your own hands.

I didn't love anyone for a long time, it's OK not to love people at your age. You may be a mature person but you're still in your youth. Some people don't find love until they've been an adult for a while.

1. Its not puberty cuz its been like this for 10 years, since i was a kid i wished i hadnt been born.
2. i see a counselor from the hospital, doesnt help much tho. I seriously cant be helped, my only option is death. But thnx, thats rlly nice of ya.

I know people who have been depressed their whole lives, as young as you have. But PLEASE never think that death is your only option! Counselors don't necessarily help everyone; this is a sad realization for most therapists who try their hardest to help those they see.

The idea is, you're not an adult yet. Live until you're 21 at least, see how your life changes. It WILL change. You don't know what your life is going to be like in 10 years from now, even though you have lived through ten years of hell.

i lost the capacity to love, u kno that tends to happen when all ur friends decide ur not good enough.

I know some people have lost the capacity to love, but that doesn't happen just because "your friends decide you're not good enough"; it happens if you've experienced perpetual trauma for years of your life, horrific kinds of shit.

Think about it this way; you still have a long part of your life left to go.

3. i didnt post here for help or support i posted here as a place to vent.

Venting isn't telling people they're wrong, that's being in denial that your life could never potentially get better. The truth is, you don't know that it couldn't.
 
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If you want to rant, that's what the blog feature is for.

And the reason we are makin assumptions is, most of us uttered very similar words, for me about a decade ago. And you know what? My last 10 years have been difficult, but I wouldn't trade them for anything, and they helped me figure out who I am.

CaptainHeroin, I've wanted you tell you this many times, you seem to have a ton of patience, props for that.
 
^^ Yep, C.H is awesome :) <3


broken, I really can understand why you feel the way you do, considering what you've been through in your life so far. You actually sound very intelligent and switched-on, very mature for a 14 year old. There is so much opportunity for you to use that to your benefit, to improve your situation and to be happy. I really hope you come to realise this for yourself <3
 
Wow you're too young to be even contemplating giving up on life. At 14 life hasn't even begun to reveal its infinite mysteries & wonders, horrific or beautiful as they may be. Hang around for a few more years, it'll be worth it, I promise you =D <3 You might have to deal with a lot of shit and a million backstabbers but then you'll find that there are genuinely kind, selfless people out there worth loving and trusting.

hellocatastrophe said:
i can say however that i'm glad you're still around. i hate to see beautiful young women taking their own lives. you have purpose and you deserve happiness just as much as anyone else does. you're part of the big bluelight family now and there are people here willing to listen and lend a hand in whatever way we can.

Quoting for emphasis :)
 
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