Traumatic LSD Experience

[bromit123]

Hello everyone

Ill open up about me before the trip and my mental health.
I had a rough autumn, I smoked a lot of pot and quit being in touch with my friends (doesnt seem rough to someone but I was idiot for smoking pot, it made me so passive) .... So I quit school because of motivation problems and I didnt have many friends left so.. yeah, no other option seemed right at the time. I felt bad about myself... I tought I was idiot and ugly because people told me so and shit... So lets continue to the trip after the opening
Start was good and the top of the trip too, I had euforia and was doing good. Nice visions and shit.
When the end of the trip came I started feel really bad, I think I got a panic attack of some sort and started some really negative thoughts, like my personality is shattered now (i read about it and im a really sensitivie person so i thought instantly that im broken now and im going to get scitzhophrenia for 100% chance and im in psychosis also and everything)
((People have talked shit about me alot and ive been bullied so ive grown a thought that people always mock me or something))
After the trip ive been feeling really paranoid and depressed... like im going to achieve nothing and im going to suck in life really bad... Also one thing to mention is that I feel my memory and concentration skills are mostly gone... its bullshit...
what am i going to do i dont knoooooooooooooowwww..... I started to plague my mind with different thoughts that Im going psycho and shit.... and I have really good imagination... i think you can figure it out what happens with really sensitive person, already a bit depressed and with huge imagination.. You start to think about some wicked shit.... But one thing I can say: When I took it at a few months ago and when i compare what i felt after the trip to this moment... I feel a bit better

sorry for my bad english.. I hope you understand what I wrote for most parts.

 

[bdomihizayka]

Bad trips come with the good. Each are just as important in my opinion. Why did you have a bad trip?

I see it as unleashing pressure from they psyche and enabling you to view your mind with clarity (loss/ diminished sense of ego). It may put a sense of great control or a sense of no control. These feelings may be intensified by how internal or external of a person you are. If you tend to be internal it may put too much control in your hands. On the other hand if you are externally controlled then you would lean towards a sense of being thrown around by the world around you.

Exploring different perspectives in your consciousness is not a task for the shameless.

You WILL be ok though. I can just about guarantee it. Don't fight thoughts, accept them..... look up meditation!!!Exercise, eat decently, get adequate rest, and maintain a fulfilling social life to the best of your ability. Don't wallow in your shit, force yourself to get out and live and you will feel better in no time. Promise.

 

[herbavore]

Also, I recommend nature. People can be harsh but the world is bigger than all the petty judgments people heap on each other. Try to connect with the world on a different level--outside of other people. Just you and the earth. It is extremely healing. Once you side-step the worry about how you fit into others ideas or judgments, you gain confidence on a deeper level.

P.S. Your English is good!

 

[Zerrr]

Try to let go of all the stuff in your mind and get back to living in the moment.

I also agree with post above about acceptance, rolling in the muck is not the best way of getting clean.

 

[bromit123]

thanks for all the support, you cant understand how much it means to me. Im trying not to roll on the muck anymore. I had a great day today actually... no bad thoughts and even tho i have thought that i have lost myself or smth, today reminded me that im still me lol.

 

[herbavore]

That's really good to hear, bromit123.