I dreamed of two or three blond, long haired girls in the ocean, near a cliff face. There was rock protruding from the water, where they rested. I found myself with my face buried in ones ass, holding her upside down. And I got the feeling of her being a doll. Not real.
Then I remember being in bed, back at my parents house. And a guy was climbing on top of me. Not particularly attractive, but I became aroused, and then got on top of him. Then I came. And then came again, very intense. I was trying to dominate, with my ejaculating on him. It was aggressive. I aimed to cover him as much as I could, with what I had. I'd first come on his body/stomach chest. Then I aimed for his face. Then I said sorry, after that "moment" of sexual release passed. And he didn't mind.
I heard my mom showering. A shower running. In life I have been showering at the gym because my new apartment's tub hasn't dried proper. Every time I shower hot it smells like paint. So in this dream I said I need to go to work. And to the gym to shower. I wanted to hide him from my family. I didn't want to explain him. I finally did have to, to my brother, who came out if my parent's room- where the guy went. I said we met at the gym, and work out together. But I couldn't remember his name.
And then I remember something about my dresser. My dad had went and got my dresser. Clothes seemed to be out of it, and around.
I woke up questioning my sexuality, but I have had intense dreams of either sex. I only seem capable of having true feelings for girls. But sexually I'm rather open. I interpreted the dream, with covering, or questioned if I was covering my sexuality. Now I see, maybe only around certain people. I'm open with myself. But I dont consider the act sacred between a man and a man, like I do a man and female. Not like. Not that life itself isn't "sacred". I'm in argument, because I experience, and I prioritize.
Then later I masturbated, to transexual porn.
I really like girls. I don't care for the smell of males. I could never take seriously a transexual as a female, and date them seriously, like a female (and the girls I date need to be very on the feminine side, physically). They don't have a vagina. They don't produce milk. They aren't "mom", they're "dad". I'm dad.
Perhaps its my own desire to be a female. Not that I want to be a female (permanently, and I won't mutilate my body). But to experience it- Their power, their feelings. How to say it. I have curiosity, and interest.
I have been at points where I wouldn't care if the one I already loved, had a penis. Well, I still wouldn't. Of course I want femme, and what they are "supposed to have", but if I already loved them...
I signed up for Plenty of Fish, later. I deleted my previous account a few days ago. The first two people who viewed me were trans.
Merging.
Then I remember being in bed, back at my parents house. And a guy was climbing on top of me. Not particularly attractive, but I became aroused, and then got on top of him. Then I came. And then came again, very intense. I was trying to dominate, with my ejaculating on him. It was aggressive. I aimed to cover him as much as I could, with what I had. I'd first come on his body/stomach chest. Then I aimed for his face. Then I said sorry, after that "moment" of sexual release passed. And he didn't mind.
I heard my mom showering. A shower running. In life I have been showering at the gym because my new apartment's tub hasn't dried proper. Every time I shower hot it smells like paint. So in this dream I said I need to go to work. And to the gym to shower. I wanted to hide him from my family. I didn't want to explain him. I finally did have to, to my brother, who came out if my parent's room- where the guy went. I said we met at the gym, and work out together. But I couldn't remember his name.
And then I remember something about my dresser. My dad had went and got my dresser. Clothes seemed to be out of it, and around.
I woke up questioning my sexuality, but I have had intense dreams of either sex. I only seem capable of having true feelings for girls. But sexually I'm rather open. I interpreted the dream, with covering, or questioned if I was covering my sexuality. Now I see, maybe only around certain people. I'm open with myself. But I dont consider the act sacred between a man and a man, like I do a man and female. Not like. Not that life itself isn't "sacred". I'm in argument, because I experience, and I prioritize.
Then later I masturbated, to transexual porn.
I really like girls. I don't care for the smell of males. I could never take seriously a transexual as a female, and date them seriously, like a female (and the girls I date need to be very on the feminine side, physically). They don't have a vagina. They don't produce milk. They aren't "mom", they're "dad". I'm dad.
Perhaps its my own desire to be a female. Not that I want to be a female (permanently, and I won't mutilate my body). But to experience it- Their power, their feelings. How to say it. I have curiosity, and interest.
I have been at points where I wouldn't care if the one I already loved, had a penis. Well, I still wouldn't. Of course I want femme, and what they are "supposed to have", but if I already loved them...
I signed up for Plenty of Fish, later. I deleted my previous account a few days ago. The first two people who viewed me were trans.
Merging.