Hi I've complained about this chronic fatigue before a long while back. When I happened to check out a thread from someone else, if I understand correctly, aside from acting as a mild opiate, apparently there are SSRI properties in this damn drug? I knew about it acting as a mild opiate when I started taking clean and sober 18 months, but had I known it ALSO had anti depressant properties...I would have never touched it with a 10 ft. pole to begin with. As I said in last time I posted thread, I tried to get off of it for 9 months to beat the chronic fatigue, before it became too much then I "relapsed."
After being on speed a couple months off/on to feel "normal" when I went off the speed, 12 days later I'm STILL feeling just as shitty as I had trying to kick Tramadol---I couldn't take less than 4 pills of Tramadol a day without feeling the consequences--or meth. I have a steady job of 5 yrs--a record for me that I can actually still DO--but it's too far to go to without a car, the buses don't go there anymore, Mom will not loan me $ to get a junk car or hell even let me not pay rent for a month to save up. I feel kinda fucked. If I lose this job, don't see me getting another in the near future.
There are rooms to rent close to where I work, but without $$$ up front no can do. I've been paying Mom weekly. Hell I've considered living under the damn bridge by where I work during the week, but I know that's rediculous & it will only get me into more trouble. As for my doc, she knows nothing about meth use & by law in Cali--if doc has any knowledge of illicit drug use, she cannot be writing Rx for my migraine dope....which I actually need for pain, not just to get high.
So, the $ I DO make every wk....keeps going to mom, getting to work, & my wkly supply of dope plus phone I HAVE to have for work. I can't save up anything it all goes to just living & if I don't have dope as medicine I find it impossible to stay awake....plus, besides the chronic fatigue, ever since going off Tramadol, I just don't feel right. MY boyfriend sent me his Rx Welbutrin, cause he gets free from Canada. This on line doc said he thought the Welbutrin might help cause it works on same neurotransmitters as meth....
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I can make appt to see doc. She did run $600 worth of lab couldn't find anything wrong back in March 2009 ok. I didn't go back because even clean I could not afford another slew of tests for $600 - the portion my insurance don't pay. I think it's more than a coincidence I felt just fine 18 months clean until Tramadol---the doc on line said try asking for Rx speed like adderall or something--I do have ADD--but havn't taken anything for it since I was 9--was on Ritalin a few years. Otherwise, as for other antidepressants...I just don't want my condition to get worse than it already is, I'm afraid to try, although I would if I knew it wouldn't fuck me up worse. Since she's already got me on a regimine of fiorinal/codeine for the migraines, I'm hesitant to ask for Adderall. I just want to be able to stay awake & focused. Help please.
After being on speed a couple months off/on to feel "normal" when I went off the speed, 12 days later I'm STILL feeling just as shitty as I had trying to kick Tramadol---I couldn't take less than 4 pills of Tramadol a day without feeling the consequences--or meth. I have a steady job of 5 yrs--a record for me that I can actually still DO--but it's too far to go to without a car, the buses don't go there anymore, Mom will not loan me $ to get a junk car or hell even let me not pay rent for a month to save up. I feel kinda fucked. If I lose this job, don't see me getting another in the near future.
There are rooms to rent close to where I work, but without $$$ up front no can do. I've been paying Mom weekly. Hell I've considered living under the damn bridge by where I work during the week, but I know that's rediculous & it will only get me into more trouble. As for my doc, she knows nothing about meth use & by law in Cali--if doc has any knowledge of illicit drug use, she cannot be writing Rx for my migraine dope....which I actually need for pain, not just to get high.
So, the $ I DO make every wk....keeps going to mom, getting to work, & my wkly supply of dope plus phone I HAVE to have for work. I can't save up anything it all goes to just living & if I don't have dope as medicine I find it impossible to stay awake....plus, besides the chronic fatigue, ever since going off Tramadol, I just don't feel right. MY boyfriend sent me his Rx Welbutrin, cause he gets free from Canada. This on line doc said he thought the Welbutrin might help cause it works on same neurotransmitters as meth....
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I can make appt to see doc. She did run $600 worth of lab couldn't find anything wrong back in March 2009 ok. I didn't go back because even clean I could not afford another slew of tests for $600 - the portion my insurance don't pay. I think it's more than a coincidence I felt just fine 18 months clean until Tramadol---the doc on line said try asking for Rx speed like adderall or something--I do have ADD--but havn't taken anything for it since I was 9--was on Ritalin a few years. Otherwise, as for other antidepressants...I just don't want my condition to get worse than it already is, I'm afraid to try, although I would if I knew it wouldn't fuck me up worse. Since she's already got me on a regimine of fiorinal/codeine for the migraines, I'm hesitant to ask for Adderall. I just want to be able to stay awake & focused. Help please.
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