I watch Berserk. I tend to get wrapped up in it around the corners of my life. Ill watch the anime straight through, sit and read the manga for 6 days straight. It brings new life to my brain and helps me cope with my own ceaselessly exhausting life. Oddly, the small wonders within the story bring restore hope and ambition to places of my brain that are usually devoted to eating up excess opiates and providing the synthetic apathy that fuels my pointless existence.
i wondered earlier if its particularly popular in Japan but concluded that it probably isnt when compared to other things. its a very long, depressing story. After the point at which the anime closes pretty much nothing good happens. While some people probably look upon the story as being incredibly dark, violent, and fantastical I find it to be incredibly real. The world is harsh, the characters evolving and the only thing to be seen through the cloud of suffocating unrelenting horror is the determination of character and will to survive even when one cant consciously think of any reason to employ it.
As the anime leads up to Guts leaving the Hawks I find myself admiring a new little realism that Berserk portrays (There are endless amount to be found and new every time which is why I never tire of the story). The ability of one wrong decision, one error in judgement to destroy...everything. Looking back at the first time I ever made my way through this story (or whats written of it so far) I didnt yet have experience with this. Sure Id taken wrong turns and made bad choices that I wouldve liked to have another go at but none so major as to completely FUCK everything beyond repair never to be re-visited. I hadn't torn lives apart. I wasn't kept up and night and tortured in my dreams by what could have been.
Ironically the last time I found myself obsessed with Berserk was right at the pinnacle of one of these misjudgments and I used the tale to bring me through it, although my head came out a little messier on the other side haha. Now as I re-visit Guts and his inability to put down the goddamned sword I find myself appreciating the story and his major fuck ups throughout in a whole new way.
I feel very old.
i wondered earlier if its particularly popular in Japan but concluded that it probably isnt when compared to other things. its a very long, depressing story. After the point at which the anime closes pretty much nothing good happens. While some people probably look upon the story as being incredibly dark, violent, and fantastical I find it to be incredibly real. The world is harsh, the characters evolving and the only thing to be seen through the cloud of suffocating unrelenting horror is the determination of character and will to survive even when one cant consciously think of any reason to employ it.
As the anime leads up to Guts leaving the Hawks I find myself admiring a new little realism that Berserk portrays (There are endless amount to be found and new every time which is why I never tire of the story). The ability of one wrong decision, one error in judgement to destroy...everything. Looking back at the first time I ever made my way through this story (or whats written of it so far) I didnt yet have experience with this. Sure Id taken wrong turns and made bad choices that I wouldve liked to have another go at but none so major as to completely FUCK everything beyond repair never to be re-visited. I hadn't torn lives apart. I wasn't kept up and night and tortured in my dreams by what could have been.
Ironically the last time I found myself obsessed with Berserk was right at the pinnacle of one of these misjudgments and I used the tale to bring me through it, although my head came out a little messier on the other side haha. Now as I re-visit Guts and his inability to put down the goddamned sword I find myself appreciating the story and his major fuck ups throughout in a whole new way.
I feel very old.