Track marks after semi relapse binge, fuck my life

[Opikit]

So i've been off heroin for a few months and decided to have a blow out. I got some mephedrone instead of H though, and IV'd it. The pin I had was one of my old ones and was blunt and barbed so it was brutal trying to get a vein but now that i'm coming down i've noticed the state i've left myself in.

My scars/track marks were always there, just scars rather than wounds. Black "dots" etc, will they ever heal btw? I'm a mixture of scared, disapointed and angry. I was doing so well, i was just about able to wear a t shirt...What a fucking mess! Feet take ages to heal too! I still had what looked like fresh spots after 3 months.

Do i need sunlight for my arms to heal? Whydoesn'tmy body heal like a normal persons? Please help, i need advice. I need help. I'm so fucking depressed. I've been doing excellent at college, my 4th week there and already got a pre exam pass...FUCK LIFE. AGHHHHIM SO CONFUSED AND SCARED.

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[neversickanymore]

Please give yourself a break.. your being way to hard on yourself. Your making yourself miserable. Your scars will heal no matter what.. your wounds will heal if you figure out how to confront and address them.. dont worry so much about that rite this secound.. forgive yourself.. throw some love in your direction for once. Just take a breath. Remember who you are.. realize that a few soon to be uniticable scars are the least of your worries.. please focus on healing you back up you..

Take a warm bath.. look at yourself In the mirror whan you do.. give yourself a break and sone love..

Just saying throw the guilt and shame out the window and jet away.. it does no good, drives use, and makes us misserable. .

Your going to figure this out.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Use some triple antibiotic ointment and give yourself time to heal.

I'm sorry to hear about what you went through.