I recently have been having some issues after 2 years clean, for the last month I been taking adderall, and been telling myself I'mgonna quit tomorrow, then tomorrow comes and I get more. I see a therapist have friends in the program, but I can not seem to bring myself to tell them...
I been beating myself up over this because I fucked up, I have a good job, make decent money have my own place, but during my last year of sobriety I been unhappy even with doing good in life....the first year of sobriety I was real happy I think it was like the honeymoon phase...
I just feel so fucked up in my head from this, It was not worth letting my guard down and taking that one, which has led me to be at war in my own head fighting all these negative thoughts that came from this situation. I just feel lost and doomed because I thought I had this, which was a bunch of bull shit lies I was telling myself
I dont know where I'm going with this post but I'm going to keep trying....I had to tell someone...I pray this mess up don't lead me back to my drug of choice... J
I been beating myself up over this because I fucked up, I have a good job, make decent money have my own place, but during my last year of sobriety I been unhappy even with doing good in life....the first year of sobriety I was real happy I think it was like the honeymoon phase...
I just feel so fucked up in my head from this, It was not worth letting my guard down and taking that one, which has led me to be at war in my own head fighting all these negative thoughts that came from this situation. I just feel lost and doomed because I thought I had this, which was a bunch of bull shit lies I was telling myself
I dont know where I'm going with this post but I'm going to keep trying....I had to tell someone...I pray this mess up don't lead me back to my drug of choice... J
