pkt
Bluelighter
to find the right dose and this is with any opiate! work your way up from a low doseage and not the other way around....
What was the cause of the stroke you had ? "at the age of 16"
that's crazy to be on opiates for 4 years when you're only 16. Especially on xanax as well, and have a dr. who is cool with that. I know you mentioned that you aren't physically addicted but after 4 years, i'd say that's impossible, unless of course you just never run out of medicine.
panic attacks seem to be more common with thebaine derived opiates than opiates like morphine and hydromorphone. I know poppy seed tea (has thebaine in it) would give me anxiety, especially during the come up. If i mixed with benzos then i'd be constantly trying to fight the nod and not to be in overdose territory which also causes anxiety and panic attacks. I don't think it has anything to do with a low dose, just something about stimulating opiates that cause this. I'd also have a rough time getting to bed at night if i dosed too late in the day, it was that stimulating for me.