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Bluelighter
- Joined
- Aug 27, 2016
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So, here's the deal Bluelighters, and also why I can't call my doctor, because he didn't prescribe them. Normally I am given 15x50mcg Fent Patches. And well, over the last 5 days, it's been a bit hellish on my end. First off, last Thursday my mom tries to kill herself. She's never been suicidal before. I'm several thousand miles away with little money and no one (family/friend-wise) to call for help. So, that finally blows over after I talked her down from taking her full bottle of Klonopins. Cut to, literally 3 days later, and my GF broke it off with me. We've been seeing each other for 2+ years, and things were great, so this was out of no where. So, I do something stupid like always, and from the 28th of (June) to July 4th-ish, I finish all my patches, hoping it would help kill myself. It didn't my body and tolerance was too high for that. I realized how killing myself wasn't the answer, but knew the WDs would want me to kill myself.
So, cut to July 5th, I pick up about 14-15 8/2 suboxone films. I tried my first down yesterday after not having been on the Fent patches or chewing them for almost two full days. Mistake. Full blown Percip WDS, like I've never felt before. I'm in hell up until now. It's not been 51 hours since my last sub, and I feel zero wds, and little creeping anxiety. Waiting for it to get worse. See, I didn't realize, but in my haze of WDs, I ended up taking x7 full strips every couple 2-3 hours as I woke up with the anxiety. I now have x7 unopened strips, and like I said I feel ok for now, but haven't taken one for about 50 hours.
Just looking for any advice as to what I'm in for. I did a little reading and maybe found out that I should have taken Subutex instead, without the Naloxone. Because now, apparently the opiod is "disconnected" from the receptors, and is not working as it should. I've heard different things, but was told that taking Subutex would balance it right. And having to wait, possible 48 hours till the REAL sub wds kick in, is the only thing I can do before taking more of the Suboxone Films that I have left. Can anyone please give me some advice, as I start a new job on Mon. (the 10th), that is supposed to be my ticket to turning things around. And I just want to be right for that, and have enough Subs, to cover the first week. Thanks in advance. Any other questions, don't hesitate to ask. I am grateful with this community, as it has helped me out before, but nothing like this, as I am not familiar with Subs at all. And they seem to be plentiful here in NM, as opposed to the Subutex route. Thanks.
So, cut to July 5th, I pick up about 14-15 8/2 suboxone films. I tried my first down yesterday after not having been on the Fent patches or chewing them for almost two full days. Mistake. Full blown Percip WDS, like I've never felt before. I'm in hell up until now. It's not been 51 hours since my last sub, and I feel zero wds, and little creeping anxiety. Waiting for it to get worse. See, I didn't realize, but in my haze of WDs, I ended up taking x7 full strips every couple 2-3 hours as I woke up with the anxiety. I now have x7 unopened strips, and like I said I feel ok for now, but haven't taken one for about 50 hours.
Just looking for any advice as to what I'm in for. I did a little reading and maybe found out that I should have taken Subutex instead, without the Naloxone. Because now, apparently the opiod is "disconnected" from the receptors, and is not working as it should. I've heard different things, but was told that taking Subutex would balance it right. And having to wait, possible 48 hours till the REAL sub wds kick in, is the only thing I can do before taking more of the Suboxone Films that I have left. Can anyone please give me some advice, as I start a new job on Mon. (the 10th), that is supposed to be my ticket to turning things around. And I just want to be right for that, and have enough Subs, to cover the first week. Thanks in advance. Any other questions, don't hesitate to ask. I am grateful with this community, as it has helped me out before, but nothing like this, as I am not familiar with Subs at all. And they seem to be plentiful here in NM, as opposed to the Subutex route. Thanks.