Hopeless Too old (and sick) to live and too young to die

zagor

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At almost 42, battling severe lifelong depression, addiction, DEPERSONALIZATION, anxiety and much more I feel that my life if pointless. Even if I manage to get clean within 2-3 years the depression is there. The depersonalization which cannot be treated is there. Tremendous fear that something will happen to my mother or brother. Divorced. Even if I got better in 3-4 years I will be 45. I am too old.
 
You’re squarely in the middle. Not old and not young, and not even close to major changes in your life and outlook being a viable outcome. You’re not old. Won’t be old for 20 years and really I’d say 25 or 30. You’ve still got time on your side, you always will as long as you live.
 
Don't worry, I'm a 43 year old just off methadone and out of nowhere I met someone who makes me smile, kinda like that high school crush thing.
You never know what life throws at you and if you give up you might miss out on something great
 
Could be worse lmao
Iv always been clever enough to see how fucked it all is but not clever enough to fix it all
 
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