Mental Health Too many drugs to cope. Help.

[switzilover333]

I am a binger. BIG time. BPD w severe anxiety, and i use drugs to cope. Fucked myself. 6 30 mg vyvanse, 10 10 mg adderal, 40 dollars of speed, 80 dollars of coke. And to come down 5 colonapan and 30 gabapentin plus all my psych meds (saphris, ambien and trazadone) WHY AM I STILL ALIVE? WHY DO I DO THIS? I use drugs to cope, and sometimes to have fun. Im in pain management and on subs bc i used to have a horrible opie addiction. I want to change, but im so far in, so fucked up, theres no hope. Why am i nor dead? Answers plz.

 

[RedRum OG]

man thats a tough situation. i cant imagine why you would want to use so many stims, let alone ones that are especially good with making anxiety worse.

drop the vyvanse, adderall, speed, and coke! dont know how long youve been using them and likely youll feel shitty for a little while, but after that you will feel so much better. stick with your subs and psych meds, and maybe the gabapentin and clonazepan for anxiety.

millions of people around the world are in your situation. all it takes is the willpower to kick whats killing you. stop the stims, you will feel better.