So I've been drinking 300ml of 80-proof booze a day for months and this last week I upped to over 400ml. I didnt think it was enough to cause any kind of withdrawals symptons so I was surprised when I started physically shaking after only 5 hours of not drinking. My drinking style is taking huge gulps of pure booze. I think this has caused my tolerance to skyrocket. I feel like for me to be satisfied I need to drink at least a pint of booze a day now. And to think a year ago I would be contented with only one or two shots per day.
I decided to spend a few days abstinent and it is so miserable. I realize I come to need the alcohol to protect me against the bad energies from my enviroment.
I realize now why so many people die from alcohol and other drugs without ever finding any recovery, despite living at a time where there is so much help available. Life sober can be extremely uncomfortable, unbearable, and no amount of rehabs, rellapse prevention classes and psychoanalysis are going to change that.
I decided to spend a few days abstinent and it is so miserable. I realize I come to need the alcohol to protect me against the bad energies from my enviroment.
I realize now why so many people die from alcohol and other drugs without ever finding any recovery, despite living at a time where there is so much help available. Life sober can be extremely uncomfortable, unbearable, and no amount of rehabs, rellapse prevention classes and psychoanalysis are going to change that.
