Havocsfool
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jun 5, 2017
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- 78
Almost one week out, kind of sucks to be in this place. It's almost harder then when the withdrawal was kicking my ass. I seem to become a narcoleptic during withdrawal(for the first 5 days), which is opposite for many people. Anxiety, and the world are distant. It should be noted that I took kratom during this attempt, but in the past I skipped a couple days to see what withdrawal was like straight and I know I don't get anxiety during withdrawal. I get the usual physical symptoms, but the emotional side of it is strange for me. I tend to either notice the emotional difference or the physical difference more, and the times when I notice the emotional difference are the times when I'm likely to use. The times when I notice the physical difference, I can just ignore it(sleep thru it or stay busy) or take kratom or loperamide(normal doses). Have any of you felt like your focus on symptoms seems to be either primarily emotional or physical? And does anyone else have the opposite of anxiety when they withdrawal for the first 5 days at least? Being able to fall asleep anywhere and everywhere? I've had a lot of anger today and the old pain in the gut is back with a vengeance, it surfaced this morning. Almost like it's getting back at me for all the time I ignored it. I was surprised I didn't feel it sooner, but I probably have IBS or something, my intestines have always felt strange in the same place since I was young, it's just turned into a (mostly) dull pain the past few years, maybe it's a weird shape there. Could just be the main withdrawals last gasp. Anyways, opiates suck because they detract from the natural anxiety(or in my case anger) and the drive to do things and create a worthwhile life. It's better to be in a state of annoyance and try to use it as fuel, than to be a slave to a drug and lose the drive for life. Next up will be kicking kratom and caffeine(HA HA HA!! I'm gonna cry, not really, but caffeine seems like an impossible addiction to quit).