PsychonautRyan
Bluelighter
I have a bit of a dilemma: while studying for a Calculus exam, I took 40 mg over the course of a day, and the day before, about 60 mg, and on the day of the exam I only had about two hours of sleep, and similar amounts the days beforehand. By that afternoon, I was having stomach cramps due to lack of appetite, dry mouth, and anxiety, paranoia and edginess that made me question my sanity. For example, when I was walking out of my Algebra class, there were two people talking, and saying "I think he's stupid because he's wearing a short-sleeved button-up shirt with pants" (what I was wearing), then there were people saying "so weird" or "so creepy", I can't stand walking in the hallway because I feel everybody's eyes are on me, and if I accidentally make eye contact, which if they weren't actually saying it to begin with, they might start saying it now, then it makes me feel even more awkward, I'd stare at the floor, but that would just make me stick out even more, and I can't stand it. I know that it's not real, but I'm becoming increasingly convinced that it is.
I decided to take a tolerance break for a couple days just to let my body recover, however, even though I woke up at 8 am, I went right back to sleep, and slept through two alarms, one on my cell phone and my regular alarm clock, and woke up close to 6 pm (15 hours of sleep FTW). At the same time, I've become much more arrogant, grandiose, narcissistic and self-absorbed on Adderall, and I'm fluctuating between those two states of emotion, and neither of them make me feel like myself, whatever that is.
Anyway, how do I abstain from Adderall sleeping through classes or at least using it without the detrimental effects on my emotional/psychological stability? In retrospect, I probably shouldn't have totally abstained from it instead of gradually discontinuing my dosage.
I decided to take a tolerance break for a couple days just to let my body recover, however, even though I woke up at 8 am, I went right back to sleep, and slept through two alarms, one on my cell phone and my regular alarm clock, and woke up close to 6 pm (15 hours of sleep FTW). At the same time, I've become much more arrogant, grandiose, narcissistic and self-absorbed on Adderall, and I'm fluctuating between those two states of emotion, and neither of them make me feel like myself, whatever that is.
Anyway, how do I abstain from Adderall sleeping through classes or at least using it without the detrimental effects on my emotional/psychological stability? In retrospect, I probably shouldn't have totally abstained from it instead of gradually discontinuing my dosage.