today was Friday.. and I spent $8 all day!

imagine? blows my mind; esp. on those Friday's where I got paid.. I'd blow my entire check if possible. I'd already owe so much out; the dope man would be getting called/chase. I'd already be thinking on how am I going to get money the rest of the time; how will I pay rent, how will I pay this/that/whatever. I was spending everything and then some on dope; nothing but dope; no food, no drinks, no snacks, just dope.. and maybe a $1 item at McDonald's.

may not seem like much to most, but it blows my mind that I spent just $8 all day today as opposed to the Friday nights I had only 5-6 months back. its crazy, man. if your truly want to change life and go in complete different direction, then trust me.. YOU CAN DO IT. I DID IT. IT BLOWS MY MIND!

 

Buy yourself something nice as a treat. You've come a long way.
Merry Christmas Boston!

 

thanks, man. I did buy myself a few nice things which added up to be an awful lot;

- new apartment (first, last, deposit)
- lawyer for bankruptcy (I needed this; I stopped paying in my dope days so this needs to be fixed)
- payments on the new car lease

all worth it, man. awesome to be able to get through these things and finally make things right. might NOT sound like a good thing to be filing for bankruptcy but its exactly what I need now to get me back to even and back on my feet. I ran up all those bills/stopped paying those bills because the dope that took over my life. it may take 3-5 years to build the credit back but I am in NO RUSH! ha.