today sucked

bad communication day. very bad. i don't know what the fuck was wrong with me. i managed to get into it with everyone. good job, go me! and the way things worked out is just so ironic, it couldn't be more ironic if someone set it up that way. i actually blocked someone's number today, this person was trying to give me something for nothing. and i was highly seeking that something to begin with. he irritated the bejesus out of me. well, i had told him from the beginning that Sagittarius and Taurus are not good together. so, whatever, probably the sooner the better. although what tomorrow shall bring is a good question.

also, the one person who i actually want to have sex with said he's coming by, way earlier in the day. and just as i gave up on it fully and got ready for sleep, so to speak, he texted and said he's on his way. now don't get me wrong, it's not a bad thing, but ready for sleep is not my most attractive state. and i'm likely to be very sleepy when and if he arrives. oh well. i told him so he knows what to expect. i have to say, even though he is not in love with me and i am with him and we have this twisted and fucked up non-relationship going on, sometimes, we have moments of love. just love. like, he knows that i love him pretty much unconditionally at this point. and that's a good thing.

wow and check this out, i just got auto-logged out and lost the end of my ranting. i guess it was meant to be then... c'est la vie.