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Today I am thankful for... ver. 2: thankful for all the darksiders!

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THe love of friends :D. I talked to my best friend who I haven't spoken to over the phone or person in probably nearly a year now. We laughed like we always have. I'm glad I've found someone (a few people) in this world I can feel that comfort from.
 
A few hours so I got into a collision with a semi/18 wheeler on a highway. Was on my way to camp bisco and my lane ran out of room. Somehow I am still here at the moment and I am pretty grateful for it. Though I do get the strange feeling that I shouldn't still be alive, which is kinda heavy. To any of those who have experienced similar things or the same exact thing, I would love to chat as this has been quite traumatic. So many mixed emotions right now. Assholes also gave me a ticket for unsafe lane changing, and the truck driver and another truck driver witness have me shit afterwards. Yelled at me and such.

Honestly it feels almost as bad as that near OD / NDE type thing I had back in September. Maybe feels worse, but I know the next six months are gonna suck. Never wanna drive again right now.

Sorry for the confusing typing as I'm on my phone and they just dosed me up with valium at the hospital
 
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A few hours so I got into a collision with a semi/18 wheeler on a highway. Was on my way to camp bisco and my lane ran out of room. Somehow I am still here at the moment and I am pretty grateful for it. Though I do get the strange feeling that I shouldn't still be alive, which is kinda heavy. To any of those who have experienced similar things or the same exact thing, I would love to chat as this has been quite traumatic. So many mixed emotions right now. Assholes also gave me a ticket for unsafe lane changing, and the truck driver and another truck driver witness have me shit afterwards. Yelled at me and such.

Honestly it feels almost as bad as that near OD / NDE type thing I had back in September. Maybe feels worse, but I know the next six months are gonna suck. Never wanna drive again right now.

Sorry for the confusing typing as I'm on my phone and they just dosed me up with valium at the hospital
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Are you ok?? Do you have injuries?
 
I believe I'm okay. I'm aching and such and I will see a doctor for a little while to have routine check ups. A lot of times things like this have delayed onset of issues. As of now, most of it is mental PTSD type stuff, as I can hear it, feel it, and see it constantly. Definitely seeing a therapist, as I am completely mentally fucked at the moment.

Most of it is just the fact that I really feel like I shouldn't still be here. Most people who wreck with 18 wheelers don't walk away from it. The airbag on the front driver side didn't go off and that area of the car wasn't really damaged at all. I just am in disbelief over the fact that I'm still alive.
 
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I believe I'm okay. I'm aching and such and I will see a doctor for a little while to have routine check ups. A lot of times things like this have delayed onset of issues. As of now, most of it is mental PTSD type stuff, as I can hear it, feel it, and see it constantly. Definitely seeing a therapist, as I am completely mentally fucked at the moment.

Most of it is just the fact that I really feel like I shouldn't still be here. Most people who wreck with 18 wheelers don't walk away from it. The airbag on the front driver side didn't go off and that area of the car wasn't really damaged at all. I just am in disbelief over the fact that I'm still alive.
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Wow that's crazy. I'm so glad you're still with us <3 seeing a therapist is a good idea because what you mentioned- delayed reaction. xx
 
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Thankful that it appears the my Celexa withdrawal is over. I tapered off but it still wasn't fun to get off. Also glad to be off of of Etizolam (didn't get too bad but didn't help). Next up is my Gabapentin. Will start to taper that today.
 
^Wow, phactor, that is fantastic! Really, really happy for you.<3

northern Lights, I had a similar experience when I got hit by a car door opening on my bike and thrown right under the wheels of an SUV just as the light turned green. If I hadn't flown visibly through the air so that the driver saw me I would be dead. I was in shock at first but over the next two days I would start shaking uncontrollably as my mind grasped how close I had come to dying. I have heard of people getting in car crashes where the sound of the impact comes back to them even weeks later when during the accident it all seemed to happen in slow motion without sound. I'm really glad that you are OK. <3
 
Are we all having days off!? Win for us all! It's starting to T-Storm and rain. I get soooo nervous anytime it rains here. I hope this is over soon. I will be very thankful when the rain is over :|
 
^ Naturally you'd be afraid hun, considering past experience, hope your fears are abated soon. <3
 
The friend who got me thru the worst day of my life (today).. were going thru the same thing and probably haven't talked in ten years..I had a message this morning from them n we talked all day, totally coincidental..
 
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