Hey guys, I'd just like to check in and let you all know how I've been feeling lately. For whoever didn't read any of my other posts, I'm at about a year on my long term comedown and honestly, I've been feeling great as of a few weeks ago. Things are just progressively going uphill for me. It may be at a treacherously slow pace, but as you all know, even the slightest bit of recovery can feel massive with debilitating anxiety (at least it used to be). The anxiety symptoms no longer control my life. Although I still struggle with some acute anxiety, I ditched my old agoraphobic habits for the most part and started to enjoy living again. It's inexplicable how optimistic I am about full recovery, looking back at all the mountains I climbed getting through this horrible period of my life, because I know that from here on, it'll be smooth sailing that will only get easier and easier. Of course, some symptoms do persist and tend to get irritating, such as shallow breathing, dizziness and fatigue, and tons of auditory and visual problems, I can't really say that anxiety has a hold on me. About a month ago I took up juggling working full time and taking summer courses at college, along with maintaining a steady social life. 6 months ago, I was hesitant about even leaving my house because I knew my day had nothing but misery in store for me. I feel that if I can make it this far, anybody can. Hell, I didn't exercise, or eat right, or meditate (not saying that they don't speed up or ease the process). I'm simply acknowledging the fact that everybody will get better NO MATTER WHAT as time goes by, as long as they stay away from substances for the time being (stimulants specifically), of course. What helped me personally was staying active and social. What I do still struggle with a bit right now is getting out of my comfort zone, but i've been taking baby steps to start being my old, care-free self again. After experiencing this, and thinking my life as I knew it was over, I became a new man. I've matured so much through this process and have really learned a ton of lessons through this experience. I'd like to wish all of you luck and remember, IT'S ONLY TEMPORARY. The second you realize that, your hazy life that you call "f*cked up for good" right now will start regaining its clarity. I hope I can post a full recovery story sometime soon, but until then.... IT'S TIME TO GRAB LIFE BY THE BALLS. DEUCES. 
