ArmyDansGirl
Bluelighter
I found out about you and was much confused
had to talk to your dad about what we were gonna do
decided to our own hearts we'd be true
started out on this journey without a clue
at first I was thinking not much would change
started getting guilty about things thought it was strange
I didn't always do what I knew I should
I'm sorry for that I would change it if I could
things were getting crazy, i had to change and knew I would
your dad and I were living off the street
your nana would call me and beg me to meet
she said times are fast and you can't miss a beat
the only one who will lose and it is him you will cheat
took those words and I thought long and deep
from my eyes tears began to seep
thats right before we found out and knew
that there'd be no pink in your room only blue
to us a little boy would be born
it was 6 months now and my stomache was taking on a new form
it was that day we decided to name you Brian
things were getting worse but I kept on tryin
as much as I loved him your dad kept lying
lots of times we'd talk bout you and as a grown man he was cryin
he said he rather stay away then to hurt you for that he'd end up dyin
time started passin away
didn't look like daddy was gonna stay
used to talk to God every night I'd pray
that things would work out eventually someday
i could feel you growing inside
you were never anythign I wanted to hide
there were times you were the only one standing by my side
though I'd yet to see your face
the bad memories were hard to erase
but your life put something new in their place
i told you this the day you were born
that soon from your dad it would be time to move on
and I dreaded the day I would see you tear
I told you that your daddy left not out of hate but out of fear
I know I can't tell you to him you can't get near
because a father's love would be somethign you would want so dear
i watched you all night long that first time
amazed and in love with what was now mine
a mothers love truly is nothing short of divine
watching you sleep is how I spent my time
i was very young and had a lot of growing up to do
but knowing I have you is what brought me through
there will be times when notihng seems to go your way
but know that by your side is where mommy will always stay
life is hard and there's always a price to pay
but if you hold on night always give in to the day
you were Gods gift right from the very start
before I ever saw you you were beating in my heart
so from you I promise I will never part
i look at you and see everything I ever did right
to have you was worth every long day and every crying night
though there are times its been a struggle and a fight
you are my joy, my love and my light
if there's anything that you learn from your mom
let it be that you got to have smarts to move on
there are some that you learn from the school
ther are some you learn with a different kind of tool
you need to see things from other people's point of view
respect them and they'll respect you
go as far as you gotta go
when things are right in your heart you will know
don't burn any bridges you may have to cross
sometimes it better to listen, sit there and watch
when its time to stand up for what is right
remember things are not always solved with a fight
most of all love yourself and to yourself stay true
never let anyone else decide what is right for you
I'll always be here I'll do what I can do
I will try to guid you when you don't have a clue
when your skies go to dark from sunny and blue
remember this to be true
I'm your mom, your friend I will always love you.
had to talk to your dad about what we were gonna do
decided to our own hearts we'd be true
started out on this journey without a clue
at first I was thinking not much would change
started getting guilty about things thought it was strange
I didn't always do what I knew I should
I'm sorry for that I would change it if I could
things were getting crazy, i had to change and knew I would
your dad and I were living off the street
your nana would call me and beg me to meet
she said times are fast and you can't miss a beat
the only one who will lose and it is him you will cheat
took those words and I thought long and deep
from my eyes tears began to seep
thats right before we found out and knew
that there'd be no pink in your room only blue
to us a little boy would be born
it was 6 months now and my stomache was taking on a new form
it was that day we decided to name you Brian
things were getting worse but I kept on tryin
as much as I loved him your dad kept lying
lots of times we'd talk bout you and as a grown man he was cryin
he said he rather stay away then to hurt you for that he'd end up dyin
time started passin away
didn't look like daddy was gonna stay
used to talk to God every night I'd pray
that things would work out eventually someday
i could feel you growing inside
you were never anythign I wanted to hide
there were times you were the only one standing by my side
though I'd yet to see your face
the bad memories were hard to erase
but your life put something new in their place
i told you this the day you were born
that soon from your dad it would be time to move on
and I dreaded the day I would see you tear
I told you that your daddy left not out of hate but out of fear
I know I can't tell you to him you can't get near
because a father's love would be somethign you would want so dear
i watched you all night long that first time
amazed and in love with what was now mine
a mothers love truly is nothing short of divine
watching you sleep is how I spent my time
i was very young and had a lot of growing up to do
but knowing I have you is what brought me through
there will be times when notihng seems to go your way
but know that by your side is where mommy will always stay
life is hard and there's always a price to pay
but if you hold on night always give in to the day
you were Gods gift right from the very start
before I ever saw you you were beating in my heart
so from you I promise I will never part
i look at you and see everything I ever did right
to have you was worth every long day and every crying night
though there are times its been a struggle and a fight
you are my joy, my love and my light
if there's anything that you learn from your mom
let it be that you got to have smarts to move on
there are some that you learn from the school
ther are some you learn with a different kind of tool
you need to see things from other people's point of view
respect them and they'll respect you
go as far as you gotta go
when things are right in your heart you will know
don't burn any bridges you may have to cross
sometimes it better to listen, sit there and watch
when its time to stand up for what is right
remember things are not always solved with a fight
most of all love yourself and to yourself stay true
never let anyone else decide what is right for you
I'll always be here I'll do what I can do
I will try to guid you when you don't have a clue
when your skies go to dark from sunny and blue
remember this to be true
I'm your mom, your friend I will always love you.
really thats great to hear. I'm glad you can feel my writing. 