Poetry To my Father

[FixXxer]

I used to think i was unbotherd by stress
Who would have guessed I'd leave my father at my best.
Unimpressed by the constant tests.
Unbeknownst to me. I was blessed.
Unappreciated time I would always invest.

I miss the venom you'd spit in my direction
At least it was some form of attention.
Now, not even a mere mention.
I sit in detention without any questions.

All the tension swept under the bridge.
I wept, for things to be better was my only wish.
I tried not to hide my feelings.
Inside i was misunderstanding cards you were dealing.
Its hard. Seemed you just wanted me kneeling.

Alas, the wheel of time continues to pass.
And do I miss you despite our fights?
Yes.
Had to get things off my chest.

I never meant for things to turn out like this
I figured you'd also want to coexist in bliss.
Work it out, bump fists.

Since.. my anger has faded.
But your absence shows me you're jaded.
Hence, I'm not elated by the things I stated.
I detonated from your unfiltered hate.
I was over being berated.
Unapologetic words made it so.
I never wanted our relationship to become faded though

I suppose that's the way it goes.
In the end..
I couldn't comprehend your ass, but still..
I will always hope you have healed from the past.
Im just saying the pain there...
was not something that was supposed to last.