i've read a lot of your works... in fact, sometimes, i often spend hours just reading old posts in Words, ones from last year or even earlier, and i never pass yours up. a lot of people in this forum have touched my heart in different ways... Mella has a way of saying the right thing at the right time. Crow has a way of getting my emotions to have the better of me. Nietzche makes me think. Dagny makes me cry. I could go on...
This asshole that i work with, is mean to everyone, but he picks on me the most, for no apparent reason. I go out of my way to be nice to him only to have him put me down an hour later. I work in a place where i deal with a LOT of mean customers. I take shit from a lot of people. and once they leave, i forget how they made me feel. But him... when i work with him, as soon as i get in my car to leave, i cry. he always makes me cry. i confronted him once... and he said "People get stressed, and busy. And if you take everything people say personally, then this is not the job for you." I think that after all that rambling, this is my point: I TAKE EVERYTHING PERSONALLY.
if you cant take what people say to heart, then why even say it?
when i say something, i expect it to be taken very personally. I dont lie. if something bothers me, i let people know about it. if i'm upset, i'm not afraid to cry. if i hate someone, they know it.
i have seen a lot of people come and go on this board. i've bonded with a lot of people. its these people whose posts i look for, and always read, and usually respond to. i've forgotten that there are 20,000 BLers here, and that i've probably passed up knowing a lot of great people.
in the past few months, yours have been the posts that i always read, and never pass up. i dont know what it is... i've been very depressed lately, and it feels good to write something, pour out my heart and soul, and have people respond to that... but there will not always be people to give that pity-hug. you give me something else... hope.
Brownie and i had this conversation once. and i told him that i believe the most powerful feeling in the world... is hope. when you have nothing, hope is the best thing there is. when you are hanging on to something, hope is your rope. i lost hope a lot of times, and had a lot of different people give it back to me. 2 years ago, Soulfly gave me hope at the lowest point in my life. I have him to thank that i am the person that i am today. And he didnt give it to me just once, but over and over, when no one else could.
MiNi... you give me hope. for myself.
Not hope that things will work out with Justin... HOPE, that i will find myself again. You give me hope that i will get by, that i will be happy again. You give me hope that i can stand up to people who make me feel like that guy at work. You give me hope that i will become SOMEONE again.
Your poetry hits home. And usually, no matter what you are writing about, i find strength in your words. I never met you, but I bet that you are a very strong person, someone who doesnt let people walk all over them. Someone who can only shed so many tears over a guy who did you wrong. Someone who takes a fall, but gets right back up.
I see it in more than your poetry. For example, what you wrote to Kagan in his post... you always seem to be able to say the brutal truth in the most optimistic way... i know that what you said to him, he will take to heart.
There are not a lot of people like you out there. I'm sure you have a ton of friends on this board and you dont need me to tell you what a great person you are. But i think all too often, we forget to tell people that they mean something to us, or that they have touched our lives in some way. I learned the hard way, that sometimes its too late to say things you once thought, but kept to yourself.
I didnt want to pass up this chance to thank you, for everything.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
*Choice, not chance, determines destiny*
"November is all I know."
This asshole that i work with, is mean to everyone, but he picks on me the most, for no apparent reason. I go out of my way to be nice to him only to have him put me down an hour later. I work in a place where i deal with a LOT of mean customers. I take shit from a lot of people. and once they leave, i forget how they made me feel. But him... when i work with him, as soon as i get in my car to leave, i cry. he always makes me cry. i confronted him once... and he said "People get stressed, and busy. And if you take everything people say personally, then this is not the job for you." I think that after all that rambling, this is my point: I TAKE EVERYTHING PERSONALLY.
if you cant take what people say to heart, then why even say it?
when i say something, i expect it to be taken very personally. I dont lie. if something bothers me, i let people know about it. if i'm upset, i'm not afraid to cry. if i hate someone, they know it.
i have seen a lot of people come and go on this board. i've bonded with a lot of people. its these people whose posts i look for, and always read, and usually respond to. i've forgotten that there are 20,000 BLers here, and that i've probably passed up knowing a lot of great people.
in the past few months, yours have been the posts that i always read, and never pass up. i dont know what it is... i've been very depressed lately, and it feels good to write something, pour out my heart and soul, and have people respond to that... but there will not always be people to give that pity-hug. you give me something else... hope.
Brownie and i had this conversation once. and i told him that i believe the most powerful feeling in the world... is hope. when you have nothing, hope is the best thing there is. when you are hanging on to something, hope is your rope. i lost hope a lot of times, and had a lot of different people give it back to me. 2 years ago, Soulfly gave me hope at the lowest point in my life. I have him to thank that i am the person that i am today. And he didnt give it to me just once, but over and over, when no one else could.
MiNi... you give me hope. for myself.
Not hope that things will work out with Justin... HOPE, that i will find myself again. You give me hope that i will get by, that i will be happy again. You give me hope that i can stand up to people who make me feel like that guy at work. You give me hope that i will become SOMEONE again.
Your poetry hits home. And usually, no matter what you are writing about, i find strength in your words. I never met you, but I bet that you are a very strong person, someone who doesnt let people walk all over them. Someone who can only shed so many tears over a guy who did you wrong. Someone who takes a fall, but gets right back up.
I see it in more than your poetry. For example, what you wrote to Kagan in his post... you always seem to be able to say the brutal truth in the most optimistic way... i know that what you said to him, he will take to heart.
There are not a lot of people like you out there. I'm sure you have a ton of friends on this board and you dont need me to tell you what a great person you are. But i think all too often, we forget to tell people that they mean something to us, or that they have touched our lives in some way. I learned the hard way, that sometimes its too late to say things you once thought, but kept to yourself.
I didnt want to pass up this chance to thank you, for everything.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
*Choice, not chance, determines destiny*
"November is all I know."
