To Emma, From Charles:

[Nietzche]

Ok, I know its been awhile bluelight gang . . .and this one I know needs a bit of a preface . . . this was inspired by reading of Madame Bovary and is written from the perspective of one of the characters . . . though not entirely accurate to the book, the inspiration did come from that source . . .
Strange, isn’t it my picturesque Emma
That I have returned
To things I fought to forget
And memories I tried to keep hidden
But ghosts are persistent
Forever here to haunt
But these memories
Beyond expectations of dread
Still cling
And it seems
That every word I read
Takes me one step closer to understanding
You
But this heightened awareness
Is not the ice I was hoping for
While I wonder these desert floors
I can only scan the pages
That bring with them not remorse
But a most profound
And discomforting regret . . .
Do I still love you?
And why should I bother . . .
Only anguish did you render
And a “me” mistaken for a “we”
Your words are enlightening
Your words bring me tears
But not for the sorrows
You hoist on your back
But for the backs that have broken
And the hearts worse off still
That you neglect to remember
And never dare to acknowledge
Special acknowledgements to my friend Will for his suggestion

 

[Angelight]

fantastic

 

[Spencer]

Originally posted by Nietzche:
Do I still love you?
And why should I bother . . .
Only anguish did you render
And a “me” mistaken for a “we”

*shudder* I love this passage. Totally hits home. Great piece neitzche. Keep it up.

 

[harraser]

your writing always makes me think Nietzche, thanks

 

[Dagny]

Very well done indeed, dear. Especially if you're still considering it a "work in progress". If you make any changes, please let me see the results!
And not sure if you were planning on 'wonder' instead of 'wander' in the first part, but even if you weren't, don't change it. I like it better the way it is. Wonder is one of the only words I could ever use to describe the desert, real or imagined.

 

[Nietzche]

Thank you so very much Spencie-po, Angie and Harraser, your replies mean much to me!
Dagny - this, as is anything I have ever written, is certainly a work in progress along with my reading of the book upon which this poem was based. Ideas are constantly kicking around in my head, its really just a matter of finding the time and inspiration to put them down in writing. And as per the wonder line . . . it was an accident, but now that I have noticed it I find myself agreeing fully with your sentiments. That word helps to communicate the poem more accuratly.
Thank you once again!