to each action is an equal and most certainly opposite reaction.

[Shuddr2Think]

i wish there was a handbook
a manual of sorts
to help me figure out
how to stop reacting as if you
were him.
i wish i knew the words to say
the moves to make
and the exact time to
make this work.
i wish i hadn't spent two years
ignored and denied
if only so i could allow you
to hear me.
coz you actually want to listen.
and altho i play it off
i am terrified.
you are too new
and i am too used
and these things come to my mind
at 3:13 a.m and keep me awake
and you are more than likely
asleep
and not knowing what i am doing
confused by my lack of a reaction
and meanwhile
he sleeps peacefully
content in his head finally knowing
that i am gone
and he is alone
and content in his solitude.
i just wish i could explain this to you
in words that could suffice
my need for understanding.
but instead i will sit here
alone
for the millionth night
confused by the mixed signals
still unsure of my own actions
and with all the witty responses i need
to make you sure
i do want you around
and to make sure i am heard.

 

[plazma]

This is a freaking tidy piece of work, just what I'd expect from one of bluelight's better resident poets.

-plaz out-