to E-girl

[shannabanana]

I am very new to Bluelight, and never post in Words, and have never chatted with you, but I feel a need to write this now.
When I first opened the Words forum, I sort of rolled my eyes. I do that though, I am cynical that way. I think I read a few random posts, possibly one of yours too. But I didn't take anything seriously.
Over the last month, I have come to the forum a few more times, and your posts are the first I read. I am so impressed and amazed by how you can totally reveal yourself, and your true emotions, through your posts. It's like you are inviting us to have a look at your life. I wish I could do that.
Anyway, I just want to say that please try to remind yourself that all of the pain and hard times you are going through now are FANTASTIC growing experiences. Obviously I don't know exactly what is happening in your life, but I do know that "what doesn't kill us makes us stronger". And I also think that, for me, even my most terrible memories are precious. You will look back at this time and love yourself for making it through, and have a greater appreciation for where you are then.
I don't know why I felt so compelled to write to a perfect stranger except that your sorrow somehow really tugs at my heart. Best wishes.

 

[Charlie Brown]

hey bananaman!! I luv egirl too she is great and i luv reading her posts over the last few weeks, what i like most is the fact that she says things that are not too frequently spoken, but once said everyone just goes ahhhhhhh that wasnt so bad. if you know what i mean. Anyway will keep checking for new posts from many others and her too

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sex is the key to the soul~

 

[C Divinity]

E Girl is the best! Can always count on her to write a kick ass piece or say some rally encouraging nice stuff about someone elses.

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You gotta be a bad girl in this world to be heard...

 

[C Divinity]

ps-that word was suppost to be 'really'
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You gotta be a bad girl in this world to be heard...

 

[E-girl]

sweetie...
this couldn't have come at a more perfect time in my life. i know that i write with a lot of emotion, its because i'm an emotional person. sometimes its my downfall. but i always tell the truth, no matter how hurtful it might be, because over the years, i've learned that no matter how bad the truth is, lies hurt worse (justin i hope you read that someday and realize what i just wrote). i wish that everything i write could be happy and encouraging and inspirational, but lately all i can pour out of my heart is endless pain, and sometimes i think i bore all of you with that... but this forum is my escape from the world. this forum is, in a nutshell, what drugs used to be for me. i have met many friends here, and unlike all the people i met when i was fucked up and cant remember their names, when i leave my house and turn off my computer, not a day goes by that at least one bluelighter's name pops into my head, for whatever reason. you guys give me a reason to live on days when i wake up and wish i wasn't alive.
i'm flattered that you enjoy my posts. to me, if no one even responds to them, it doesnt matter. putting my thoughts down on paper makes me feel just a smidge better about myself. but people never cease to reply with words of wisdom, and it means the world to me. in the same way that you look for my posts, there are certain people whose posts i look for as well... but every time i come here, i find a new favorite poet, and it gets to the point where i end up reading every single post and taking it to heart... not just a select few. everyone here has a way of expressing themselves that is unique and enlightening, and its the only truth i know in my life right now.
if you've seen my replies, then you've heard me say this a thousand times... "It can only get better." that's always my advice to people in pain. but i'm the only one who HALF-believes it. i keep telling myself that, and some days, i truly believe it. but what you said, i believe that whole-heartedly. you said this to me:

even my most terrible memories are precious.

i hope that someday i can look back and say this as well.
thank you, for making me smile today. i really needed it.
((((hug))))
~ Sometimes the best friends in life, are those you've never met. E-girl
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