beanpoophead
Bluelighter
Saw the picture
saw myself so real
held it in my own
bones, wearing thin
and I couldn’t believe
what my own eyes
saw, through thin slits
so thin now, so perfect
now, not enough now
and even I couldn’t say
that I looked okay
wish I could see that
when I see myself
today, and everyday
im not sick
nope, not ever sick
sick to my bones
watch them bleed
life and make me whole
if only ten more
would go
then id be something
even more than this
and I wish I could stop
obsessing over it
cos obsession turns
to manic expressions
and losing all control
I try so hard
eat so much to be ok
so the world doesn’t
come in and think
what’s wrong with her
not sure how it all fell
one day that
the next day this
and I don’t even think
that it’s enough, yet
ten more to go
to beautiful
away I stroll
to beautiful
saw myself so real
held it in my own
bones, wearing thin
and I couldn’t believe
what my own eyes
saw, through thin slits
so thin now, so perfect
now, not enough now
and even I couldn’t say
that I looked okay
wish I could see that
when I see myself
today, and everyday
im not sick
nope, not ever sick
sick to my bones
watch them bleed
life and make me whole
if only ten more
would go
then id be something
even more than this
and I wish I could stop
obsessing over it
cos obsession turns
to manic expressions
and losing all control
I try so hard
eat so much to be ok
so the world doesn’t
come in and think
what’s wrong with her
not sure how it all fell
one day that
the next day this
and I don’t even think
that it’s enough, yet
ten more to go
to beautiful
away I stroll
to beautiful


