The most challenging concept for me to embrace was that while trying to find myself and being comfortable in my own skin...I kept changing. My viewpoints, dreams, and desires were ever morphing into something new. So I was running from checkpoint to checkpoint trying to "find" myself.
What I've begun to realize only recently...is that in order to "find" myself, I needed to be still a moment and listen. Then I started to analyze my motivations and decisions only to find that many things I viewed as facets of me....weren't. They were the actions, decisions, and dreams spawned by others in my life.
I find that I can never be me if I'm using a recipe concocted by others. I can't be whole if I exist and change only to please others. I've decided that I can no longer be a byproduct of someone else's need.
If I had continued down that particular path much longer, I fear I would have become an empty puppet creature seeking to exist only for the amusement of others. I chose to cut the strings......
Who are you today?
Just Rambling...for what it's worth. Thank you for posting this piece. It is beautiful and thought provoking.
Caress
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Moral Oracle...no. Sometimes Moron Orifice.
