keep on the sunny side of life. 
I've been doing some shopping here lately, time to retire the pants I had on, and now replaced with 'bigger,bigboy briches'. I've said this many many times, and going on 'adventures' with my tail in between my legs when I make 'that' trip back home.
I feel a lot like the prodigal son story in the bible, except I was spending my own money out there, and had to come back home because the cost of living was getting to high(and with a meth and heroin habit at the time, didn't feel so good when I call home and tell them I'll be coming back home empty handed.)
What's going to make it different this time? then all those times before? Well that's a choice I have already made, and a choice I will have to make when I get offered that drug. I can tell you the answer will be 'No' now, and when that day comes(and its going to come). Only I can make the ultimate choice.
The path I choose will not be easy, it will be a 4star treck,..meaning I will drive for 7hours, then attended school for a week (7days @ 8hours a day), and once I graduate the program I will have access to jobs all over the world(not just USA), I will most likely go work for Google building and splicing their fiber plant in for at least another year or 2,before I leave the country. Now I will leave the country in good standing, and it will be for work. I'm not going to be a refugee lol.looks like harder work then the work i'm used to.
Like I mentioned in throujae(sp) blog about smoking//nicotine, all of these require steps and I can look at the huge picture, of my goals in life, and the ones I want the most are going to be a challenge, and unlike Dora the explorer the map is blank in between the destinations, and the real adventure begins with the journey, and not the destination right?
Wish me luck guys
I've been doing some shopping here lately, time to retire the pants I had on, and now replaced with 'bigger,bigboy briches'. I've said this many many times, and going on 'adventures' with my tail in between my legs when I make 'that' trip back home.
I feel a lot like the prodigal son story in the bible, except I was spending my own money out there, and had to come back home because the cost of living was getting to high(and with a meth and heroin habit at the time, didn't feel so good when I call home and tell them I'll be coming back home empty handed.)
What's going to make it different this time? then all those times before? Well that's a choice I have already made, and a choice I will have to make when I get offered that drug. I can tell you the answer will be 'No' now, and when that day comes(and its going to come). Only I can make the ultimate choice.
The path I choose will not be easy, it will be a 4star treck,..meaning I will drive for 7hours, then attended school for a week (7days @ 8hours a day), and once I graduate the program I will have access to jobs all over the world(not just USA), I will most likely go work for Google building and splicing their fiber plant in for at least another year or 2,before I leave the country. Now I will leave the country in good standing, and it will be for work. I'm not going to be a refugee lol.looks like harder work then the work i'm used to.
Like I mentioned in throujae(sp) blog about smoking//nicotine, all of these require steps and I can look at the huge picture, of my goals in life, and the ones I want the most are going to be a challenge, and unlike Dora the explorer the map is blank in between the destinations, and the real adventure begins with the journey, and not the destination right?
Wish me luck guys
