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kpins1230
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Ok, I am needing some advice. Right now, I am not in any bad situation currently but am preparing for the inevitable or so I feel like is the inevitable. I was diagnosed with depression & anxiety around age 14. I feel this was a terrible diagnoses because my Father had just passed away from cancer and my mother (being a nurse) thought I should be medicated to help with the grieving process. At the age of 16 I was prescribed huge dose of remron & 3MG's daily of xanex/ klonopin and put me on the wrong path. In college I would often find someone selling their script of benzo's and take 5+mg's a day (small guy, 130lbs) and did that until I dropped out of college at 21. Titrated myself down and off of remron, hated depression meds and continued to take 3mg's a day of kpins since they last tad longer.
Fast forward 9 years after first being prescribed, I have short term memory issues & often can't recall conversations I had the day prior with people, would make terrible money decisions and overall carelessness. My fear is that obviously I am addicted to these suckers, but everything I've read is horrible about coming down. I am titrating down myself, discussed it with doc (doesn't want me to stop the kpins actually) but after 2 months of being on 1 or so MG a day, I am feeling shaky, all the time anxious, messing with my social life, and a horrible metallic taste in my mouth. I've had another discussion with another pysch doc and they suggested that I admit myself so the hospital (or w.e) would monitor me while detoxing. Am I withdrawing? I feel like I am, but never had to come down.... When I feel bad, can I smoke a bowl and take a vicodin take the edge off for a while? I do fine with opioids and don't have a dependency (also don't want to start one.
I cannot take a time out from life to deal with this withdraw / detox period. I am a sales rep in the military/defense industry & very dedicated to work, hence the anon part of this post. What should I do to deal with this withdrawel? I've relapsed a couple times and took 5mg's+ a couple times... but makes the titration that much harder after.
Obviously I can't let anyone know, or need to keep my appearance strong.
Anyone have any at home remedies to help? I smoke pot on regular, as much as I can get away with & do my job.
Fast forward 9 years after first being prescribed, I have short term memory issues & often can't recall conversations I had the day prior with people, would make terrible money decisions and overall carelessness. My fear is that obviously I am addicted to these suckers, but everything I've read is horrible about coming down. I am titrating down myself, discussed it with doc (doesn't want me to stop the kpins actually) but after 2 months of being on 1 or so MG a day, I am feeling shaky, all the time anxious, messing with my social life, and a horrible metallic taste in my mouth. I've had another discussion with another pysch doc and they suggested that I admit myself so the hospital (or w.e) would monitor me while detoxing. Am I withdrawing? I feel like I am, but never had to come down.... When I feel bad, can I smoke a bowl and take a vicodin take the edge off for a while? I do fine with opioids and don't have a dependency (also don't want to start one.
I cannot take a time out from life to deal with this withdraw / detox period. I am a sales rep in the military/defense industry & very dedicated to work, hence the anon part of this post. What should I do to deal with this withdrawel? I've relapsed a couple times and took 5mg's+ a couple times... but makes the titration that much harder after.
Obviously I can't let anyone know, or need to keep my appearance strong.
Anyone have any at home remedies to help? I smoke pot on regular, as much as I can get away with & do my job.
