SolidRegardless
Greenlighter
Hi,
New to bluelight but I am happy I found you.
I am an opiate addict caused from Chronic Pancreatitis a few years ago which caused serious health issues at the time. They have since subsided but my opiate (Zomorph) use has not. I have slowly come down from 180mg BD of Zomorph and now have got to 120mg. This is still shit high! Worst still, The 180mg BD (180mg twice daily) is actually split up as 3 x 120mg.. but crushed. I crush those fekers up so hard so that I get a good buzz from it. I don't need anyone to tell me this is bad and that I should cease or desist in life as I know this.
I ran out of my meds a day early yesterday and ordered Kratom online to help me get through the WD. Worked for the first part of the WD but 36 hours in was no fun at all! I actually went to the out of hours doctors and got a covering prescription of 2 x 120mg MST capsules to get me through this night. I hate this. I hate my life. I have two lovely daughters and I and they think the world of each other.
I joined this site to talk about my legal addiction prescribed by my GP, and to get support to get off the darn things. I am a happy go lucky person, even before the MST. I want to get back to my usual self and stop all this crap. My relationship probably relies on it. If you don't know, MST (Morphine) caused you to have Hypergonadism after a chronic use. This in turn causes you to lose all of your little hormone friends which allows you to get hard! Sorry for the crude nature of that sentence.
Anyway, I think I have found some way for me to vent and receive information from fellow... addicts. I found it hard to write that word, but to be truthful to myself, that is indeed what I am.
Love to all!
SR
New to bluelight but I am happy I found you.
I am an opiate addict caused from Chronic Pancreatitis a few years ago which caused serious health issues at the time. They have since subsided but my opiate (Zomorph) use has not. I have slowly come down from 180mg BD of Zomorph and now have got to 120mg. This is still shit high! Worst still, The 180mg BD (180mg twice daily) is actually split up as 3 x 120mg.. but crushed. I crush those fekers up so hard so that I get a good buzz from it. I don't need anyone to tell me this is bad and that I should cease or desist in life as I know this.
I ran out of my meds a day early yesterday and ordered Kratom online to help me get through the WD. Worked for the first part of the WD but 36 hours in was no fun at all! I actually went to the out of hours doctors and got a covering prescription of 2 x 120mg MST capsules to get me through this night. I hate this. I hate my life. I have two lovely daughters and I and they think the world of each other.
I joined this site to talk about my legal addiction prescribed by my GP, and to get support to get off the darn things. I am a happy go lucky person, even before the MST. I want to get back to my usual self and stop all this crap. My relationship probably relies on it. If you don't know, MST (Morphine) caused you to have Hypergonadism after a chronic use. This in turn causes you to lose all of your little hormone friends which allows you to get hard! Sorry for the crude nature of that sentence.
Anyway, I think I have found some way for me to vent and receive information from fellow... addicts. I found it hard to write that word, but to be truthful to myself, that is indeed what I am.
Love to all!
SR
