Tired of living this way.

[ProjectPatt]

I'll be 21 years old March 11th and I've spent since I was 14 years old addicted to IV Dilaudid it has controlled my life I always say that I will get clean when people hassle me about it but im sitting up in my bed playing with my fiancés hair while she sleeps and I know that I want to be sober for me and my family, recently my fiancé lost our baby Sophia Grace. She was four months pregnant and had a miscarriage. I refuse to lose one more thing I've already lost my child and there was nothing I could do. But I won't lose my family and I will not lose myself I am through living this life style.. Please if you read this say a prayer for me this is the first time in my life I've wanted something this much I'll need all the help I can get.. Thanks god bless

 

[Drowzey]

Best of luck to you man

 

[ProjectPatt]

Thanks man.

 

[Erikmen]

I do relate to your post. Wish all the best to you!

 

[Maya]

Hi OP, many of us have battled addiction and some took so many years to overcome it. I am positive that you will be triumphant on this obstacle. I am also very sorry that you and your fiance have lost your baby. Goodluck to everything.

 

[ProjectPatt]

Hope it gives you some comfort! Your not alone man there are others out there fighting there on demons! Just have faith in yourself.

 

[herbavore]

ProjectPatt, it is really encouraging to see your determination. I am terribly sorry about the loss of your unborn daughter. We make room in our lives for a baby and whether they arrive or not, it is a monumental loss. Sometimes such a loss can shake your life up in ways that are needed. Get lots of help and support for this. It always goes much deeper than just the addiction to any given substance. Find out where you need healing and then go to people that can help you achieve that healing--whether that is a therapist, addiction counselor, sponsor, spiritual teacher, yoga, meditation--whatever you need to feel whole.