Id like to add to this thread. Im also kicking right now cause money is short and im sick of this, im soon going to move onto a better university and i cant stay addicted and move 100s of miles away to a new school so i wanna be clean for that...
Ive stocked up on gabapentin, xanax, valium, edibles (i have a medicinal marijuana card i live in los angeles ) i have weed, a few subuxones strip and a pill, and if i reall wanted i can get oxy 15 and morph 15 er with a 30 minute drive.
Even with all that its really hard to quit. Its like i need to be locoked up in a cage or in jail for me to quit when i have meds that help me i seem to cave and find a way to get well.
ill stay posted for motivation im gonna try my best to not take any the rest of the night im at hour 12 in my college class right now :/
If i could get to hour 24 i would be so proud of myself, im just so sick of this and my birthday is about to come up i really dont want to be addicted still, i promise myself every year ill quit this birthday or that holiday and dont.