I walked in my door and the timer for the oven went off. My chicken was done. I had been to the gym to shower, while it cooked. I go to the gym to shower because the painters painted my bathtub wrong, and every time I shower here it makes me sick, from fumes, still months after I moved in. So I go there.
Pulling in the parking space outside, the track ended-- The track "My Little Universe", by Depeche Mode. "My Little Universe is expanding". The time was 4:44, according to the clock on the dash.
Getting home from work, before, another song- "Angel" ended as I parked.
At the gym, I saw a very mixed fellow, who works there every morning. He is Black, White, "Puerto Rican", and maybe something else. I reflected, again, on my seeming feelings against Whites disappearing into others, and I feel I misunderstand myself. I like this guy. I like another guy, named Byron, who I used to work with, who is Black and White. It's not that I hate people. Or have strong feelings, of wanting them out. Especially not in the U.S. I started a thread earlier, about "White Genocide", in which I talked about how so many brown colored people are entering Europe, and how they are on a course to outnumber the natives, potentially. I posted images of projections of the "average" American (I think it was), in 2050, and they were all mixed. Everyone mixed. All races. My problem with this was that they were all mixed into White. White with them. And white was gone. Meanwhile, the roots of those that mixed in, are still there, in the native countries, where the roots of Whites, are gone.
I still have a problem, I guess, with that. I do.
But I don't hate people, really. I don't exclude that guy- Nito, who works at the gym, or others. I find mixes interesting, to be honest. But I don't want everyone mixing. I don't want whites to be gone.
I also viewed pictures of "blond haired blue eyed" Iranians/Persians/Afghanis. These were in my reflection/on my mind. It was interesting to me, how closely I "relate" to the faces. It is said that Alexander the Great's armies left these genes in these regions, potentially... But it's also been said that they were naturally more White, and that Arabs, with Muhammad's armies, added to the genes in Persia, Afghanistan, etc. It is just interesting, to see "White" genes survive, for so long, in these areas, if they are in fact from Alexander the Great's armies. They look Iranian/Pakistani... But they look European. Kind of like how you can look at a child and see both the mother and the father, and some can only see one or the other, sometimes, but I see both. And, I can accept them. "White" doesn't really... Matter. It does, but it doesn't. I guess it depends on the mix... But then I'm wrong about that, too.
I don't know. I just don't want Hate. "My little universe is expanding" reflected my once again "acceptance", of others, and finding likeness, in other places.
I still feel the same about Europe, though. I feel some borders are good.
Pulling in the parking space outside, the track ended-- The track "My Little Universe", by Depeche Mode. "My Little Universe is expanding". The time was 4:44, according to the clock on the dash.
Getting home from work, before, another song- "Angel" ended as I parked.
At the gym, I saw a very mixed fellow, who works there every morning. He is Black, White, "Puerto Rican", and maybe something else. I reflected, again, on my seeming feelings against Whites disappearing into others, and I feel I misunderstand myself. I like this guy. I like another guy, named Byron, who I used to work with, who is Black and White. It's not that I hate people. Or have strong feelings, of wanting them out. Especially not in the U.S. I started a thread earlier, about "White Genocide", in which I talked about how so many brown colored people are entering Europe, and how they are on a course to outnumber the natives, potentially. I posted images of projections of the "average" American (I think it was), in 2050, and they were all mixed. Everyone mixed. All races. My problem with this was that they were all mixed into White. White with them. And white was gone. Meanwhile, the roots of those that mixed in, are still there, in the native countries, where the roots of Whites, are gone.
I still have a problem, I guess, with that. I do.
But I don't hate people, really. I don't exclude that guy- Nito, who works at the gym, or others. I find mixes interesting, to be honest. But I don't want everyone mixing. I don't want whites to be gone.
I also viewed pictures of "blond haired blue eyed" Iranians/Persians/Afghanis. These were in my reflection/on my mind. It was interesting to me, how closely I "relate" to the faces. It is said that Alexander the Great's armies left these genes in these regions, potentially... But it's also been said that they were naturally more White, and that Arabs, with Muhammad's armies, added to the genes in Persia, Afghanistan, etc. It is just interesting, to see "White" genes survive, for so long, in these areas, if they are in fact from Alexander the Great's armies. They look Iranian/Pakistani... But they look European. Kind of like how you can look at a child and see both the mother and the father, and some can only see one or the other, sometimes, but I see both. And, I can accept them. "White" doesn't really... Matter. It does, but it doesn't. I guess it depends on the mix... But then I'm wrong about that, too.
I don't know. I just don't want Hate. "My little universe is expanding" reflected my once again "acceptance", of others, and finding likeness, in other places.
I still feel the same about Europe, though. I feel some borders are good.