Time to sober up

I just got back from my doctor appointment, I missed my suboxone doctor appointment months ago because of course the addict side of me just said fuck treatment and went back to using. But I'm slowly starting to find reasons for me to sober up and get off the junk, and I know I've said that so many times and failed even when I swore to myself it was the last shot. But this time things are really starting to seem like they might change for me. I had a job interview last Friday and that went fucking awesome, the whole process took four hours but they said they were really impressed with me not to mention it pays $11.00 an hour starting then you get a 90 day evaluation which can lead to an even better raise.

Then a big one was my sister, I haven't seen her in six years and on Sat I finally went to see her. I got to see my niece and nephew too for the first time and to hear her call me uncle really touched me to be honest. I ended up staying the night and smoking some pot with my sister, making it overall a great reunion.

It's been three days clean now, I can only hope that number keeps going up and heroin...although the comfort it beings will be well missed. I feel it will do nothing more then hold me back from what really matters. That's all it has done, I want both in my life but I have to be serious about which one is going to benefit me more in the long run.

 

Best of luck to you! It sounds like things are really starting to go well, and you're right; at this point in your life heroin will only hold you back.

 

Thank you, today is a little harder then yesterday. I feel so uncomfortable...like crawling in my skin. Not a pleasant feeling.