Mental Health Time passes as if it fast-forwards? Numbness of body, Depression?

[ikon_89]

Hi, I've posted a depersonalization/depression thread but deleted it because I thought I rambled too much.

Have any of you experienced or experience any of these symptoms: (most notable and bothering to me)
1. Time passes as if it is fast-forwarded
2. Almost or non-existent body sensations (taking a shower, playing sports, sitting, sleeping, typing a keyboard, etc. feel pretty much the same - numb feeling)
3. It is like my brain system, in terms of 1-100% went to like 10% (slower concentration, I feel some knotted muscles on the upper back of my head that may suggest fatigue for no reason)
4. Perception from like outside of your body (As if the neck, hands, fingers, upper body, lower body, feet are almost not yours), the body feels like a dead tree

Sorry for many confusing/weird expressions.

I'm very irritable these days. I'm very grumpy and irritated because these symptoms don't go away. I took many many medicines and I've never had a day (since maybe 2007) that when I lay on bed at night and could think I spent a whole day, in my body, with a feeling of liveliness, that I really lived today. Since I became very depressed around 2007 (not suicidal or sad, but as if my body system shut down, tired), then with high level of anxiety, depersonalization (not feeling my body, loss of myself), ..... symptoms kept changing). It's frustrating after I realized I've been a slave to the mental illness for a decade, with very low self-esteem & confidence, when I believe in your 20s you're supposed to have the highest energy, liveliness, and dreams&goals to achieve.

 

[Mjo95jr]

Hey Ikon,
I do suffer from Depression.

I have had some of the symptoms you described. I have had time pass as if it was fast forward, lying in bed looking at the ceiling lost in your thoughts and feelings and all of a sudden a few hours have past, during this time it feels like all I've done is look at a ceiling.

I too have had the angry irritable, and grumpy moods for quite some time. I think it is my brain's way of coping with the negative and down feelings, it prevents me from feeling bad if I feel angry. However, the majority of this anger is toward myself and focused on why I feel that way and can't change it.

I am also young [19] and feel the same way regarding the view of being young. I feel like I should be on top of the world and have a lot of energy, having dreams and hopes that I strive for, but day in, day out I want to lay in bed and stare at the ceiling.

I have also had a few other symptoms, most notably the overwhelming feeling of existence. I have also had thoughts of suicide (which I promised myself I won't act on regardless of how much I want to), lack of motivation, feeling like I am a burden to the world, and general thoughts of uselessness and emptiness.

So yes, you are not alone in these feelings. Granted everyone who has symptoms has many all their own and to varying degrees. But it doesn't mean you are alone. I hope this helped to make you feel a little better about these feelings. As a new member of this community I want to tell you it is a warm and understanding group. I'm sure many other will post after me and give their input, please do listen, they have a lot of knowledge and want to help as well! :D

 

[sam05]

Hey Ikon,
I do suffer from Depression.

I have had some of the symptoms you described. I have had time pass as if it was fast forward, lying in bed looking at the ceiling lost in your thoughts and feelings and all of a sudden a few hours have past, during this time it feels like all I've done is look at a ceiling.

I too have had the angry irritable, and grumpy moods for quite some time. I think it is my brain's way of coping with the negative and down feelings, it prevents me from feeling bad if I feel angry. However, the majority of this anger is toward myself and focused on why I feel that way and can't change it.

I am also young [19] and feel the same way regarding the view of being young. I feel like I should be on top of the world and have a lot of energy, having dreams and hopes that I strive for, but day in, day out I want to lay in bed and stare at the ceiling.

I have also had a few other symptoms, most notably the overwhelming feeling of existence. I have also had thoughts of suicide (which I promised myself I won't act on regardless of how much I want to), lack of motivation, feeling like I am a burden to the world, and general thoughts of uselessness and emptiness.

So yes, you are not alone in these feelings. Granted everyone who has symptoms has many all their own and to varying degrees. But it doesn't mean you are alone. I hope this helped to make you feel a little better about these feelings. As a new member of this community I want to tell you it is a warm and understanding group. I'm sure many other will post after me and give their input, please do listen, they have a lot of knowledge and want to help as well! :D

i can relate to the parts bolded. it seems so tragic, and before you know it 7-8 years have passed and i'm in the same situation.