Through the Glass.

I recently had a foray with methamphetamine, and I will never do it again. The day after, I felt like total shit. The second day, I had the worst panic attack I have ever had. That entire week I could not eat without throwing up. Things have gotten somewhat more bearable as time passes. My heart rate rises very easily now. I have an almost constant migraine. It's been three weeks. Sleep is the only relief I get, minus a few minutes during the day where my body seems to say "Alright, Ash. You get to feel normal. But only for now!" I eat breakfast, and by lunch I am ravenous. My vision will momentarily blur at random points throughout the day, I have a perpetual case of heartburn, and my arms tingle at times. I find myself bartering with god to make this go away. I see spots and floaters in my field of vision, and I recently learned that .5mg of Ativan makes that go away. How much longer is this hell going to last?

 

Wow, i really wish I could edit the shit out of this right now. My grammar is a fail.

 

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thanks