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Thoughts on pilling alone?

while i do feel E is very much suited for a social environment, seeing as its effects mesh so well with getting closer to others and such, i also have rolled alone many times and, while certainly different, the experiences were usually very enjoyable. just in a different way :)

due to the nature of its effects, of course MDMA makes a great party drug. but it also has many other uses and a lot of potential, and it can also simply be FUN to use by yourself. i've used it countless times, in many different environments.

doing it alone may help you get in touch with yourself, as opposed to the constant distractions of being around people while you're on it.
 
I don't understand people that can't roll alone. Ecstasy is an eye-opening experience, and to experience it with the peaceful quiet of solitude has been some of the most tranquil moments of my life. My mom passed away about 5 years ago, and when I started doing pills 2 years ago I would spend whole days rolling by myself at my mom's cemetery, talking to her about everything and dealing with my grief. It was a very powerful experience for me everytime, and I learned so much about myself. The emotional vulnerability that ecstasy gave me helped me to come to terms with the loss of my mom and break down issues that I didn't even know I had. I don't roll alone hardly at all anymore, simply because my boyfriend and I love rolling together, but we spend some time doing our own thing seperately when we roll.

Unless you're a complete idiot or have a medical condition, it's not unsafe to roll alone. If you can't take care of yourself by yourself when you're on e, you shouldn't be doing it at all. Alone, in a crowd, wherever. The you that is present while rolling around other people is most often not who you are alone. Try it, you'll probably like hangin out with yourself a lot. And if you can't have any fun rolling alone, maybe you're just not that sick of a person. haha. j/k
 
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that's why you have fun on e , because you can't control your emotions/actions and fun/weird/dangerous stuff happens more than you expected , it's not speed but still.

And who want's too hang out with oneself more? Seriously , don't need drugs to be a recluse , and e seems to cure that kind of behaviour with a lot of people in a social context.
 
Get a good 30 minutes of meditation in and I swear you'll reach the highest consciousness you've ever experienced. I recommend a buddhist meditaion known as "Metta Bhavana" (The Developing of Loving Kindness). Use it for therapy. It will be fun as well as productive.
 
Got some new E and did a couple pills alone yesterday and I still got mild effects. I seem to feel good for about an hour and then the E feeling fades away. The last 5 times I tried doing E alone, I have not yet got that full body euphoria that I am used to getting, so I'm not sure if its because of low dosage, bad pills or because of the "alone" factor. Im very frustrated and fed up with E lately. I talked to a couple people who said i wasn't getting really high because I was doing it alone.....so I dont know what to do anymore.
 
^^ I highly doubt the alone factor will intervent with the drug's chemistry elliminating the euphoria. Don't quote me on that though... I'm not a neurosurgion. :P
You probably have crap pills dude...
 
I can understand peoples different points of view on rolling alone. I've personally rolled totally on my own once, by totally i mean at home, without my friends but my family downstairs. I didn't plan to end up without my friends but no-one else was dropping and i guess they all just got tired/bored as they were drinking and they went home, So i was left to walk home about 30 minutes after dropping.

I've dropped on my own WITH friends a few times before this and had not such good times as normal when all my friends are doing it but not too bad, it's kinda funny as your'e complely off your'e nut and then there's all your'e mates pissed up.. just funny to watch while off your'e pickle... didn't go down too well when i'd try and hug one of them either! :D

Anyhow.. the night i ended up dropping alone, at home.. I have to say wasn't very good at all, i mean.. I wouldn't plan on doing it again. I remember i come-up on my way home through a dark field, about 5 minutes from my house. I'd been drinking and smoking a lot that night anyway and was quite gone to be honest. The walk home was fantastic! I never thought i'd feel that way walking alone, on E.. but i had no fear, everything around me was just perfect and i'd definatly agree that its much more of a personal experience, all my thoughts seemed clearer.. I would think about my life and fit everything into place.. anyhow i walked in off my pickle.. my family was downstairs my dad has no idea of my drug ussage but off my nut i faced him anyway, god knows how he didn't notice my jaw going because i ended up staying downstairs talking with my family with 2 lighters in my hands flicking them and moving them around, creating my own form of light-show.. jeez If my parent or his partner knew what someone on E looked like, They would of knew this night, LOL.

Anyhow i decided i better go upstairs before i give something away all was good up to this point I walked into my room, sat at the computer.. had a few nice rushes, my vision went and i could barely see the computer screen, with dificulty i'd change the song occasionaly but at the end of the day, i just got bored. no-one to talk cod shit too, no-one to play roll tricks on, no-one to snuggle up to. There was one highlight i did like about the expeirnece, I'd never tried it before but as i was on my own, in my own house, I took a shower after getting bored of my bedroom. And oh my god, Taking a shower on E is just totally amazing. I stood there for about 20 minutes, but like others i can't keep my mind on one thing so decided to get out. Came back into my room and was like, WTF to do! got up, sat down, got up, sat down, looked out the window. Ended up going back out to my mates flat waking him outta bed just for something to do.

All in all i'd say it's not a completely bad expeirience, just IMO not as good as doing it with others, the benefits of doing it with others far-more outwieght those of doing it alone.

EEEeek, sorry for long post, I guess it's that time of night and i'm bored out my mind.. still rambling on now see, anyone for a chat? ... heh ;)
 
I would say if you do it alone: Don't do it without a portable cd player, and do not focus the role on lights. Figure out how to channel your energy and gain the skill to blow yourself up at will!!!! Once you can control E, you get it's full potential. (the cd player helps alot) :D
 
It's all about mood & enviroment. The vast majority of my rolls have been alone - the other third have been with good friends not in a club enviroment. In fact it was our past time to dose up and basically walk around the entire city watching the world past by us as our foots pounded that pavement - be a observer of the city you reside in, pretend to be a alien seeing it for the first time (alone or with friends). I love taking my pups for a walk when i'm peaking - hear the silence of the city amongst the mumour of the world itself.

The few times i've had E in public, in a club surrounded by thousands of likewise people I have only been able to see the stupidity and meaness in those people, that despite everyone being high on E. The vast majority of people out there are self-centred, mean, angry and generally, even when high on such a wonderful drug, incapable of communication beyond cliche's and platitudes. It's that falsehood that people persist in holding onto in the very way they articulate their words and how they project their ego which truly exposes them for the immature and lost people they are unfortunately are.

No i'll stick to poping alone with perhaps my loved ones and enjoy a world that isn't trying to impress itself with cool clothes and banal music. I'll learn how to be me without having to impress people without having to pretend that i'm something i'm not.

Sorry for the rant -
 
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