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After having nearly everyone recommend to me NEVER to pill by myself - "coz it sux", I decided to pop one on monday arvo.

It was a beautiful day, I took the day off uni and had an awesome time. Normally one pill doesn't do it for me - but for some reason on monday I was completely content with my dose.

It's almost a pity that I decided that would be my last pill..... if I'd have known how nice it is to pill by yourself, I'd seriously consider doing it again...

MUST BE STRONG...:)


To anyone who's exeperienced and has explored e'ing and wants something more out of it, I'd fully recommend a solo trip.


Just out of interest, what are other people's thoughts on e'ing alone (this question is more directed at people who have pilled a fair bit)...
 
i can see where its enjoyable but its dangerous.

popping a pill a going out doing whatever can slowly turn into popping pills daily doing normal daily activities.

sticking to raves/events makes rolling more special for special times. not just a daily thing.

my 2 cents :P
 
I am a regular dropper of E and about half the time its alone.

I find I can really get heaps deeper into it on my own.

Walking is amazing..........specially in dark parks and stuff you dont know real well.

I also would highly recomend it.

As for doing it every day..............No it just doesnt work like that....................Its not like Heroine.
 
chppppp: i disagree.

Just because you do it alone dont mean you risky bigger chance of overdoin (not overdosing) some drug.´

On the other hand, keeping druguse to oneself might be a sign that you are hiding from your friends on behalf of the drug. early stages of alcoholism often shows itself like that.
this can be negative, but doin it just cause thats how you feel the best doin, then go ahead. aslong as you are aware of the signs.

another neg thing is that, on E you often seek and need to feel secure and safe. if youre alone then thats a problem. you havnt got your firends to hug and snugg and talk to when you need. you who have rolled knows xtly what im talking about.
but if you feel strong, glad, and safe within. then go 4 it.

i had a friend dropping, walking with headphones at night, across outskirts of the city and home to me. she told me it was sweet. and i trust her.
 
Yeah rolling alone with music is awesome, highly reccomended!..gives you some time to reflect on your life and do your own thing and not have to worry about anyone but yorself.

It's something I like to do once in a while, I think its great!
 
I have rolled alone a few times...... Some reasonably good, other times was fantastic.

I've found just chilling out listening to music is great, or maybe sitting on a beach watching the sunrise after everyone has crashed is is pretty cool too.

Has it's good points and bad points.

As mentioned above i have found at times that i do wish i had someone there with me, not so much to hug etc etc but just to talk to. Not a major problem though, nothing that freaked me out.

Overall i have had good experiences from the odd solo roll, however it is totally different ecxperience to the rave scene.

Would definately not recommend that become anything more than a rareity though...
 
I always thought I'd not want to be a lone roller.... I always seem to need people about me, whether its for the physical touching side, or to talk to, or dance with, or share something with, or just knowing their presence was there if I needed it (sometimes I sit on my own and watch my friends having a ball and that is enough for me, I am happy with that). The other weekend, almost as an afterthought at a small party I decided to have a pill. And at first all was good, I was enjoying chatting with a mate, and talking with randoms, but after awhile I desperately wished to be on my own, with my thoughts. I'd be thinking about some issues in my life and be almost at a "breakthrough" of sorts, almost a suddenly being at peace with an issue, and someone would talk to me, or something would happen that would distract me, or someone would put a good track on.... If I'd been in an area of town I knew better I'd have definitely taken myself off for a walk on my own.

Usually i have no problems with mates wanting to come back and stay at mine, or asking me to stay at theirs, but even when a mate who was on the comedown asked to come stay with me, I was kinda disappointed- I'd been looking forward to going home and lying in my bed enjoying the end of my peak on my own.

But that side of me that always comes out on e, that thinking of others and doing what I can to make their experience the best for them, I said yep, and ended up with him snuggling with me. It wasn't bad don't get me wrong....I've just got that desire now to do it on my own one day soon, without the distractions...
 
Well why does everyone so bent on raves being the only place to have fun pilling, my buddy smoke pot and I'll usually pop a pill and ride around with him. Maybe stop in a few bars and night clubs for a second and I have a fantastic euphoric time talking to people. I go home around 2 am get and the bed and enjoy the afterglow pilling alone works great IMO. I have actually taken 3 tabs one night at my house while my g/f was out of town and had a pretty good time. Didn't do to much but listen to some Oakenfold and lay on the couch all peeled back..(did want some cooch though realllly bad but had to just get that idea out my head)
 
I have rolled 300+ times at least (like 4 year period)..popped thousands of Es (popped 100 pack little less then a month, and was rollin and friend came over and im like "yo im a mother fucking magician them 100s i had DISAPEARED in thin fuckin air dawg"..not braggin tho, just makin point) im experienced as shit hah ex E-tard tho for sure.

Heres deal for me, I went through a phase where i was mad fucking depressed and would only roll alone (bipolar.. didn't know tho), and rolled multiple times a week and always had to be bymyself for the most of the night, can't tell ya why tho.. prolly no real reason just fucked up, next mornin if i couldn't sleep (almost always) id always call my homie to pick me up unless it was still mad early id call my other homie that sold hard since he was up all night anyway, and he liked geeking off me driving cuz he didn't have Ls so would always make me drive fiends car (not recommending drivin rollin..but was wacky as shit one night someone emptied air outa tired (fiend tryin to get more crack, was his car) all tires flat 4 in the mornin im FUCKED up driving with crack in the car.. i just keep sayin "yo this feels wierd as shit, i feel like im captain on a boat.. and we playin tag with 50.. but we only doin 10 miles an hour dawg!".. alright that was totally off topic but i just remebered that shit.. totally forgot about that night was funny as shit hah.

Alright fuck in new paragraph.. heres deal when i rolled hardcore bymself when i was fucking crazy depressed, i would be happy most of the time but i couldn't find one thing to do and stick with it.. i always moved from thing to thing unsure of what i wanted. I would talk on phone alot to people, but ALOT of the times sooner or later during the night i always felt deeply depressed but i would just keep doin it.. figured was never happy anyway this makes time go faster. Of course none of that may be your case because maybe you ain't depressed but figured id add it just incase.

The thing i liked about rolling bymyself was that I could think (im a big ass thinker always thinkin about all kinds of shit and not remeber most of it a hour later.. but like thinkin!). I could do whatever i wanted.. and id rather beable to talk to this girl about shit for hours then worry about chillin with people (its kinda wierd situation not getting into it, i just talked with her everyday and had no way to see her cuz of legal bullshit and etc..). And honestly i could get as fucked up as i wanted with out worrying about lookin totally wrecked infront of people, i could snort mad fuckin pills even tho i was ambarrassed about snorting a fucking pill etc..it didn't matter if i thought the moon was making faces at me or i saw doors opening that weren't opening.

All in all, i stopped rolling pretty much, want to do it again but waitin for the perfect time i haven't rolled at all in over 2 months and like once a month for 3 months after that. Im not gonna say i wouldn't enjoy rolling bymyself again because i would its just that i did everything to do solo rolling, and im not sure i would have rolled bymyself like that if i wasn't so depressed i was pissed because no matter what i did i was still livin.. but thats no here or there. Theres shit you can learn about yourself rolling alone, but i think you can only learn so much..and if you have depression rolling alone will make you feel like your really alone, and make you more depressed then you could imagine, seeing flaws in everything.

Sorry for length but hope it gives you some incite.
 
^^I understand. There will definitely be a part of you that misses the social side and communication.

I also understand the 'loser' comment - it feels a bit weird doing it by yourself, also because of the stigmas attached.

However, with the right mindset and preparation, it can be amazingly insightful, particularly if you want to use the experience to reflect on things in your life. The last time I rolled, I rolled alone and went for a walk thinking about things in my life and came to conclusions about people in my life that made me change the way I deal with them for the better.

Believe me, in a peaceful setting, some quality music, a decent shower, and clean fresh sheets, a pill can be a great night too, just in a different way to dancing your nut off, which can be great fun too;)
 
If you don't mind rolling without talking to anyone or getting lightshows then you don't have anything to worry about. It's all about what you can live with or without. I personally roll about 3 times a month...and at the times that I rolled by myself it was pretty nice to do what when and however I wanted. Just depends on what activities you set for yourself while rolling...that way having people around won't matter.
 
i personally dont like this, you get bored and lonley. I just say its alot funner with people. (Someone to talk to, hug haha)
 
hey man

I've spent alot of time high alone. It isn't the same drug when you do it by yourself. Everything is so much more personal. From the intensitiy of a rush, Like There is noone to share it with but yourself and thats not such a bad thing :D Plus you can always listen to whatever music you want :D

I think the best way to describe it is as Personal. that sums it up farly well if you ask me

digital
 
I for one prefer rolling with a big group, I usually get this cuz the events over, everyones hits is gone, people just wanna smoke out and crash. but thennnnnn cuz id been stupid and bought a few too many and dropped a couple more im hit abit longeR? i find that the rest of my 'nite' is actually spent on the bed or walkin in a park in the early hours of the morning just listenin to really really chilled out music feeling the hits and remembering the good times of the night while holding onto the trusty vix inhaler. it gets alot more fun with other people. but i have done this a couple times.
most recently when i went down on a trip to melbourne where some really hospitable BL'ers (potato,princesskitty,12345, VirtuaTrancer, raz etc) let me out to one of their house parties which continued into potato n princess kitty going to one of the dayclubs, me being under18 was not allowed in by th bouncers and i had already dropped and was feelin a slight buzz. the pill was kinda speedy so i just put on my IPOD went around feeling the hits and just lookin like a happy chappy.

i felt that although the hit wasnt intense, it was appropriate for the situation. id find it hella hard to be REALLY MASHED up to the point where seeing whats happening around me gets hard sometimes by myself. so yeah, i find that pilling alone lets the thoughts flow just make sure you dont get too hit by yourself otherwise it might be hard to relate to the general public around you
 
Its dangerous as well, you lose inihibitions and on those walks it can get hairy, I mean you cant see the bad in people.

Ive done it enjoyed but but had an experience where Ill never roll alone again but it was fun at the time Ill admit.
 
I always had a theory that there is no difference between rolling alone or in a group of people. I thought that if the MDMA is decent that you will get high no matter what. On the contrary, I've had a few people tell me that atmosphere and setting has a big impact on the E high.....Usually I roll with other friends and lately I have tried popping alone, and it has been quite unsuccessful. I thought cause it was because of bunk pills but now i am really starting to believe that atmosphere does trigger the E high....Who knows???????
 
Rolling alone can be pretty good. I find the biggest problem while rolling alone is lacking communication with others especially if the pill has speed in it. Also when I roll alone I consintrate on how I feel alot so when I comedown I usually want another1 a lot more then when i'm at party or a rave rolling.
 
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