thoughts of you in the middle of the night

[snowgrl]

Thoughts of you In the middle of the night
As I sit here again
In the middle of the night
Just to think about you
Think about what you are doing
Who you are with
Are you safe?
And are you having fun
Everyone tells me I shouldn’t car
I know I shouldn’t care
But every morning I wake up and
Every night I lay my head to sleep
You are still in my mind
I went thought and did too much for you
Just for you to throw me away and move on
Like nothing ever happened
I didn’t hurt you but you hurt me
You broke my heart and mind in 2
And I don’t know why
You never treated me right
You were always mean
You were always rude
And you would always hurt
And this is what I get for you hurting me
Thinking about you every second of every day
I guess this is a weird way
I guess I had it coming
For whatever fucked up thing I did in my past
So i'm sorry
Will you forgive me?
For whatever I did to deserve this horrible punishment
Will you forgive me so I can get on with my life?
To go trough one whole day without thinking about you
One morning
One lunch
One night
With not one thought of you
By Maggie maki
so if you are reading this please if you have any suggestions at all on how i can move on and have a good day please tell me

 

[Charlie Brown]

baby it is okay to feel like this, it will be worst before it gets better. be content with yurself and depend on only yurself. ask why u need this person so much and eliminate that from u,practise meditating and feel the peace. relax,breathe, close yur eyes pretend you have a third eye that you can see from your inner eyes, focus on yur problems and you will sense a realise from them, you will feel a rush of understanding about yurself. and you will be content with u. Ive tried it and boy I was so overwhelm about what was bothering me. keep yur head up sunshine the days will be brighter

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sex is the key to the soul~

 

[xiola-muse]

you are so sweet...no worries girl..
we all do this..it hurts
but try to forgive yourself..
learn from what you experienced...
let the hurt go or make it into art...
remember what doesn't kill you makes you stronger..
also, sometimes when all we see is the closed doors we forget to see what is open...
"sometimes when i look down i just miss all the good stuff and when i look up i just trip over things" -ANI DIFRANCO

 

[E-girl]

Will you forgive me so I can get on with my life?

i've been there. dont wait for that forgiveness sweetie. you may wait forever.
but i definitely know the feeling.
there is not advice i can give that would fix this for you... i know what its like to trust someone, and be let down. i cant tell you how to make it better, but i can offer some thoughts from my own experience, something i'm going through right now...
what good is loving someone, who cannot, will not, love you back? all too often, we waste the most precious moments of our lives, waiting for it be the right place, the right time, but with the most wrong person. dont waste those moments... someone is deserving of them.
love should not be such hard work. love should be bliss... it should be feeling completeness and serenity, just being in someone's presence... it should *not* be a feeling of resentment and utter disappointment... that's not love.
love is not sitting up at night, wondering where he is... and why is not there. dont lose sleep over him... as corny as it sounds, the best thing to do is watch a sappy love movie... for this reason: you will realize that love should be so much more... it should be something with a happy ending. and it will motivate to seek out the person who TRULY makes you happy.
also, talking to complete strangers sometimes helps, they tend to be less judgemental... and so i offer you my AIM s/n... tiggersgurl2067... i'm always on sweetie. you can ramble to me as long as you need to. i'm great at trashing undeserving men

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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
"...there are 2 paths, you can go back, but in the long run... there's still time to change the road you're on..."