A couple of weeks ago my girlfriend, my friend (I'll call him M), and I each took three tabs of LSD. Im not sure how strong the tabs were but I'm guessing around 150 each. Keep in mind I am a college student who lives at home with my dad. However, my dad is an old-school raver and psychonaut so he gives me a lot of advice about drugs and how to trip safely and is cool with me and my friends tripping at the house. This will be useful later in the story. Anyways, everything was going fine for about the first two hours. Great visuals and laughing uncontrollably. Then I started to notice my girlfriend was beginning to act really weird. She was holding on to a strawberry and kept saying "This strawberry is the only thing I know, "Do not let me eat this Strawberry". It was kinda weird but I didn't think much of it. Then a few minutes later she started saying her friend's names (Im gonna use fake names) but it was something like "Sara, Haley, Bailey, Strawberry, and gum mint vape. These are the only things I know". Around that time I noticed she had sent me like 5 Snapchats, I looked at her phone and she was continuously spamming everyone in her Snapchat contacts with random selfies. At this point, I started to realize what was happening so I took her phone away which she was really upset about at first but she forgot in about a minute when she looped again. All she kept saying was"Sara, Haley, Bailey, Strawberry, and gum mint vape. These are the only things I know" about once every minute. I had some Xannax on hand so I tried to give her one to hopefully chill her out and end the thought loops but she was refusing to take it. She was acting like a kid refusing to take their medicine. I kept trying to wait for her to loop again so I could try different ways of convincing her to take the Xanax but it wasn't happening. Eventually, I asked her if she was having a good time and she responded with "I'm having a great time", So I talked to my dad about it and he said if she says shes having a good time then just let her wait it out so that's what I did.
About an hour thirty into the loop, she stood up and said "Sara, Haley, Bailey" and walked to the bathroom. Once she got to the bathroom she proceeded to have explosive diarrhea. Once she was done she got up and walked into my room and screamed "I GET IT NOW. OH MY GOD BED!!!" and proceeded to jump on my bed. Then she screamed "I GOTTA SHIT MYSELF" and ran back into the bathroom. But this time she didn't shit or anything, she was acting like she was having the worst shit of her life but nothing was coming out. She then stood back up and the process repeated. " I GET IT NOW OMG BED" jumps on my bed "I GOTTA SHIT MYSELF" and ran back to the bathroom. Her having explosive diarrhea was part of her thought loop. She probably did this a total of 30 times and all while this was happening she was screaming and at some points, she was crying. My dad heard her screaming so he came in and told me he was going to get some Seroquel from a friend to help her. For those who don't know Seroquel is an anti-psychotic and is supposed to help kill the trip. Every once in a while she would scream "IM IN A LOOP" and she would start crying I would ask her if she wanted a Xannax and she would say "Yes please". But then the loop would restart and she would go back to refusing to take the Xanax. So I stood by her and waited for her to realize she was in the loop again with the Xannax on stand by and eventually I got her to take it. Around this time I was trying to help her get out of the loop. Every time she would try to go back to the bathroom I would say "Remember going to the bathroom is part of your loop" and this kind of worked. Sometimes she would get up and run to the bathroom but for the most part, I kept her in one place. At this point, she's about three maybe four hours into the loop and she's really starting to realize what's happing to her but shes still in her loop. In fact, her realizing that she's in the loop became part of her loop. She would repeat the same thing she had been repeating for the last few hours but at the end, she would scream "OH SHIT IM IN A LOOP" and then she would start crying and she would hug me and say "Please help me" and then the loop would restart. It was really sad and I hated seeing her in that state so I gave her another 0.5mg Xanax and my dad finally came back with the Seroquel so I gave her that. At one point her loop restarted again and I asked her how she was feeling and she said "I feel fantastic!!" and shortly after she peed herself.... So I took her to the bathroom and put her in the shower. While she was in the shower was probably when she was at her worst. She kept screaming "911 911" and when I asked her if she was okay she said she was fine. At one point I had to step out of the show and she screamed "I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO FUCK ME RIGHT NOW". Keep in mind my dad is home and can hear everything she is saying which isn't a big deal for me but I knew she would be horrified once she came out of it. I went back into the bathroom and she kept jumping out of the shower. Once I got her all cleaned up we went back into the room and I told M to make sure she doesn't jump in her pee while I get some cleaning supplies to clean it up. Of course, the first thing she does when I leave is dive straight into her pee. While I'm cleaning she kept taking off all of her clothes in front of me and M. Which Im really glad only M was there because we're all really close and it would have been a lot more awkward for everyone if anyone else was there. Anyways, I got everything cleaned up and I gave her another Seroquel.
It's about 5 or 6 hours since she started to loop and she is finally starting to chill out. She's just sitting on the couch mumbling random words like "Banna tree, Dog, Bed, Mom, Dad" and every once in a while she would scream again. After doing that for a while she started saying some really weird stuff like "Can I masturbate right now?" or "Im fucking M???? EWWWW" or "M! Why are me and you fucking??". It was really weird it was like she kept convincing herself that she was cheating on me with M and she would be grossed out by the thought of it. She also kept asking me if I wanted to have sex. Me and M at this point could finally relax and chill for the first time since she started looping. We could tell she was starting to chill out and we were just smoking some weed and joking around trying to make light of the situation. for the next two hours she just kept mumbling random words and as the night went on the words started to get darker and darker. She started saying things like "Hell, Death, Kill me, Devil". It was kind of creepy but shortly after she finally went to sleep. The next morning she woke me up and asked me if I was real and said she didn't have any recollection of what happened the night before. She said all she knew is that she was stuck in hell and had to piece her reality together by saying random words.
It was definitely a crazy experience for all of us. Luckily, M said he still had a great trip. I don't know why she went into thought loops because we have taken LSD plenty of times before and she has never had a bad experience. The only thing I can think of is complications with her antidepressants. She takes Prozac and she stopped taking them about a week or a week and a half before we tripped so idk if that could have caused it. She said she didnt experience ego death but I think she did. Her actions reminded me of Sigmond Freud's five stages of psychosexual development. She was in the oral stage when she was obsessed with her gum mint vape. She kept holding it and hitting it and when she lost it she would freak out. This stage is when the Ego develops. She was in the anal stage when she kept saying she had to go to the bathroom and when she peed herself. The phallic stage was when she kept saying she wanted to masturbate, this is when the Superego develops. The Genital stage when she kept talking about how she was a whore, when she said she wants everyone to have sex with her, when she kept asking me to have sex with her, and when she kept talking about having sex with M. And towards the end she kept talking about death. I might just be overthinking it but regardless it blows my mind what psychedelics are capable of.
About an hour thirty into the loop, she stood up and said "Sara, Haley, Bailey" and walked to the bathroom. Once she got to the bathroom she proceeded to have explosive diarrhea. Once she was done she got up and walked into my room and screamed "I GET IT NOW. OH MY GOD BED!!!" and proceeded to jump on my bed. Then she screamed "I GOTTA SHIT MYSELF" and ran back into the bathroom. But this time she didn't shit or anything, she was acting like she was having the worst shit of her life but nothing was coming out. She then stood back up and the process repeated. " I GET IT NOW OMG BED" jumps on my bed "I GOTTA SHIT MYSELF" and ran back to the bathroom. Her having explosive diarrhea was part of her thought loop. She probably did this a total of 30 times and all while this was happening she was screaming and at some points, she was crying. My dad heard her screaming so he came in and told me he was going to get some Seroquel from a friend to help her. For those who don't know Seroquel is an anti-psychotic and is supposed to help kill the trip. Every once in a while she would scream "IM IN A LOOP" and she would start crying I would ask her if she wanted a Xannax and she would say "Yes please". But then the loop would restart and she would go back to refusing to take the Xanax. So I stood by her and waited for her to realize she was in the loop again with the Xannax on stand by and eventually I got her to take it. Around this time I was trying to help her get out of the loop. Every time she would try to go back to the bathroom I would say "Remember going to the bathroom is part of your loop" and this kind of worked. Sometimes she would get up and run to the bathroom but for the most part, I kept her in one place. At this point, she's about three maybe four hours into the loop and she's really starting to realize what's happing to her but shes still in her loop. In fact, her realizing that she's in the loop became part of her loop. She would repeat the same thing she had been repeating for the last few hours but at the end, she would scream "OH SHIT IM IN A LOOP" and then she would start crying and she would hug me and say "Please help me" and then the loop would restart. It was really sad and I hated seeing her in that state so I gave her another 0.5mg Xanax and my dad finally came back with the Seroquel so I gave her that. At one point her loop restarted again and I asked her how she was feeling and she said "I feel fantastic!!" and shortly after she peed herself.... So I took her to the bathroom and put her in the shower. While she was in the shower was probably when she was at her worst. She kept screaming "911 911" and when I asked her if she was okay she said she was fine. At one point I had to step out of the show and she screamed "I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO FUCK ME RIGHT NOW". Keep in mind my dad is home and can hear everything she is saying which isn't a big deal for me but I knew she would be horrified once she came out of it. I went back into the bathroom and she kept jumping out of the shower. Once I got her all cleaned up we went back into the room and I told M to make sure she doesn't jump in her pee while I get some cleaning supplies to clean it up. Of course, the first thing she does when I leave is dive straight into her pee. While I'm cleaning she kept taking off all of her clothes in front of me and M. Which Im really glad only M was there because we're all really close and it would have been a lot more awkward for everyone if anyone else was there. Anyways, I got everything cleaned up and I gave her another Seroquel.
It's about 5 or 6 hours since she started to loop and she is finally starting to chill out. She's just sitting on the couch mumbling random words like "Banna tree, Dog, Bed, Mom, Dad" and every once in a while she would scream again. After doing that for a while she started saying some really weird stuff like "Can I masturbate right now?" or "Im fucking M???? EWWWW" or "M! Why are me and you fucking??". It was really weird it was like she kept convincing herself that she was cheating on me with M and she would be grossed out by the thought of it. She also kept asking me if I wanted to have sex. Me and M at this point could finally relax and chill for the first time since she started looping. We could tell she was starting to chill out and we were just smoking some weed and joking around trying to make light of the situation. for the next two hours she just kept mumbling random words and as the night went on the words started to get darker and darker. She started saying things like "Hell, Death, Kill me, Devil". It was kind of creepy but shortly after she finally went to sleep. The next morning she woke me up and asked me if I was real and said she didn't have any recollection of what happened the night before. She said all she knew is that she was stuck in hell and had to piece her reality together by saying random words.
It was definitely a crazy experience for all of us. Luckily, M said he still had a great trip. I don't know why she went into thought loops because we have taken LSD plenty of times before and she has never had a bad experience. The only thing I can think of is complications with her antidepressants. She takes Prozac and she stopped taking them about a week or a week and a half before we tripped so idk if that could have caused it. She said she didnt experience ego death but I think she did. Her actions reminded me of Sigmond Freud's five stages of psychosexual development. She was in the oral stage when she was obsessed with her gum mint vape. She kept holding it and hitting it and when she lost it she would freak out. This stage is when the Ego develops. She was in the anal stage when she kept saying she had to go to the bathroom and when she peed herself. The phallic stage was when she kept saying she wanted to masturbate, this is when the Superego develops. The Genital stage when she kept talking about how she was a whore, when she said she wants everyone to have sex with her, when she kept asking me to have sex with her, and when she kept talking about having sex with M. And towards the end she kept talking about death. I might just be overthinking it but regardless it blows my mind what psychedelics are capable of.
