The funny thing about truly observing yourself is finding clarity.
I am not the friendly, kind and calm person you all think I an. This was just a drug induced state of mine.
Abstaining from drugs the past 16 hours showed me who I am. A fucking degenerate hypocrite who's easily irritated. Random outbursts of anger, depression and unease now consume me.
Even laughter has lost its optimistic alure, it just feels different. Arriving randomly through out my life with no rational explanation outside mania.
Perhaps it is rational. My life is a joke, I'm a joke.
How long can I stay sober?
I am not the friendly, kind and calm person you all think I an. This was just a drug induced state of mine.
Abstaining from drugs the past 16 hours showed me who I am. A fucking degenerate hypocrite who's easily irritated. Random outbursts of anger, depression and unease now consume me.
Even laughter has lost its optimistic alure, it just feels different. Arriving randomly through out my life with no rational explanation outside mania.
Perhaps it is rational. My life is a joke, I'm a joke.
How long can I stay sober?
