those nights are turning into every night

[Squirt]

some nights i lie in bed
and pretend my pillow is
the shoulder of my love;
strong and always there for me.
some nights i lie in bed
and pretend my comforter is
the arm of my love;
holding me close.
some nights i lie in bed
and pretend my stuffed animal is
the torso of my love;
there for me to cling to.
some nights i lie in bed
and pretend the blanket at my feet is
the feet of my love;
playing footsie with mine.
some nights i lie in bed
and the wall against my back
is the body of my love;
protecting me from everything bad.
those nights are turning into every night.
yet there is still no shoulder.
no arm.
no torso.
no feet.
no body.
the nights are still empty.
but i will play pretend until i don't need to anymore.
and i know i will play pretend for a long time.

 

[Yoyi]

Hey...you!! Yeah you!

Tis the season. You are young, beautiful and a pain in the ass!! What...you want sympathy? You are a pain in the ass!! That is what makes Squirt Squirt!! That smile, and that laugh!!

Keep cuddling..nothing wrong with that...as long as you know that you will find someone.

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btw...tag!! You are it!

 

[Crow]

hey my little raver girl!
I know those feelings. Please keep your head up. I'm here for you.

 

[EbowTheLetter]

As I'm horribly inarticulate this morning...Wow. and I know.
E-bow, who bets squirt has many a shy secret admirer.

 

[bc]

heh. i think most of us have encountered this feeling at one time or another.
but umm....should this feeling persist, i'd like to lend my services.

take care squirt, know you have many who admire from afar.
bc
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bc-
**Proud to be an Official member of the Stuck-Up/8-Up Crew**
"Fuck PLUR! it's all about hardcore ass fucking!!"
We'll make great pets...

 

[LILJo]

hey i really love this poem. its so personal and touching. i can really relate to it.
lotsa love-jo

 

[soulfly]

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[Thelazer]

been there.. done that.. it sucks, agreed 100%
Don't worry.. you'll find someone soon!
Jay
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"Roads?, We were going we dont need roads!"

 

[bc]

i just wanted to bump this up.
it really strikes on such a deep level for some reason.
every night i spend alone in bed, even if i'm not truly alone, reminds me how much i hate being alone. physically. mentally. emotionally.
i hope that feeling changes for you.
bc
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bc-
**Proud to be an Official member of the Stuck-Up/8-Up Crew**
"Fuck PLUR! it's all about hardcore ass fucking!!"
We'll make great pets...
"drug suppliers, typically wearing 'Ecko' brand sweat shirts shuffle around the dance floor, chanting softly, 'want some pills? k?'" - Shu Shin Luh, The Chicago Sun-Times

 

[the^sneeker^pimp]

sorry you are lonely squirt. things will get better. you will find the person meant for you. he is out there; just a matter of being at the right place at the right time.
cheer up sweetie

if you ever need anything or just want to talk, you can count on me.
kim

 

[L O V E L I F E]

Squirt:
I too have been heart-broken, and I sympathize with you.
At the risk of taking your words literally, I would suggest that you spend this time falling in love with and being completely content with the beautiful inside-and-out Squirt.

Regardless of what the future brings, she's the best friend you'll ever have.

 

[Squirt]

hehe thanks guys. it's not so much that i'm lonely (though it would be especially nice to have a decent guy next to me, there for me when i need him who's not going to dick me over and hurt me, as has happened so recently etc. etc.). it was just something i was thinking about for a while and decided to put it here. hehehe i love knowing that i have a plethora of people to turn to. that means so much.

-- squirt
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"sweet release / i feel better / and i hope this state of mind will last forever / sweet release / a relevation / and i long to show the world my situation"

 

[Goddess]

*sighs* I can relate with you BUT i also can tell ya theres some good guys out there as well. Love you girlie

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The Goddess
Beauty is the promise of happiness. Stendhal

 

[Mellabopper]

i've just been searching through the old words archives (as i do every so often) and i thought i'd bump this one back up.
i still love it. and sadly, can still completely relate.
Mella

 

[Angelight]

some nights i lie in bed
and pretend my stuffed animal is
the torso of my love;
there for me to cling to.

^^^^^the story of my life.
squirtles this was beautiful. Thankyou for sharing.

 

[Shuddr2Think]

i know this all too well....

 

[RitalinGurrl]

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"Maybe some other time.. Fuck you very much."

 

[E-girl]

familiar feeling.
hey, if you're ever having a sleepless night that seems endless, i'm always up having one too. IM me.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
Find one person you can count on forever, one person you can love forever, and one person you can be with forever... and if you're lucky, it will all be the same person.
"Live for the memories."

 

[Furnace]

*sigh*
if only we could have someone warm next to us every night.
hope you sleep well tonight, Squirt.

laters,
Taz.
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Still post-rockin' in a free world

 

[CARESS]

Squirt,
Beautiful...painfully beautiful.
Caress