Stimfreak2234
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Feb 22, 2021
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- 91
Once you start using meth at 17 can your brain even ever recover and return to normal.? 18 now, been sober since October 4th save for getting drunk just one time. Is my brain ever going to heal? At my worst point i was extremely paranoid that my death was around the corner and I would be the victim of some random attack. The paranoia has settled down but I’m experiencing some severe depression and depersonalization. I wish I would’ve studied and went to college, I can’t enjoy anything now, even sex, I had sex last week with this girl, but I still felt like killing myself, this wasn’t supposed to be my life. I feel like I’ll always have these demon on my back that I’ll use again. I feel like the biggest loser in the world for using, like I’ll always be a loser who disappoints everyone and himself, I haven’t accomplished anything in life, and still continue not to. All I do is wake up and think about stuff from the past all day, while other kids my age are dreaming of the future.