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MrsGamp said:
And he was soooo Satanically clever. Yeah, I went to pieces because he drove me fucking mad with his stalking ... I ended up on a mental ward in 2009 for not much more than a week ... and I didn't get to spend a single night with my daughter for TWO YEARS after that. And once she was gone, I hit the booze - but she was GONE.

I was made to take a "hair test for alcohol". It came up positive despite the fact that I'd abstained for 6 months before the test.

18 months later, turns out this "hair test for alcohol" was utterly bogus. There was a class action i the UK against the test vendors by parents who had lost custody because of this bullshit test.

Until the alcohol hair test was exposed, I was "prima facie" an alcoholic. No-one believed me, not even my own lawyer.

18 months of not being allowed to have my daughter overnight because of utter utter bullshit.
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Shit so bitter ... it's destroying me ...
 
Rebelgal54 said:
@MrsGamp I am so sorry for what you are going through. There is no pain in the entire world like that of a mother who is separated from her child. I know so personally. Just remember that even though she doesn’t talk to you often, she retains her love and affection for you just like you do for her. Children have remarkable abilities to hold onto memories and emotions. You don’t have to “do” anything to make her proud of you. Children don’t need the sort of superficial distinctions that we look to as adults.
Your ex had no right to use a custody battle as a way to get back at you and have control, but it is all too common with abusers. Remember you’re not alone. If you ever need to vent to another mother who understands pm me.
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<3 Thanks! my therapy group has been great because I've met other women who were victims of litigious abuse and lost their kids unfairly. It's so good to be believed.
 
I don't believe you Gamp, but I believe in you<3

Gamp. We have to be careful about our logic as it tends to fail us sometimes. When a person deep in addiction thinks about justifications for use we need to give it the hammer test.

If it can be translated into.. Fuck it, I can't deal with these awful effects from hitting myself in the head with a hammer so I'm going to continue to hit myself in the head with that hammer. Then we are not thinking clearly.

What the fuck is left for you at keeping at this? I already know your not enjoying it anymore. You can start to rebuild a life at any time. How far down is your bottom, you have to using a shovel at this point.

Come on back and join the living:).. put all that effort in something worth while. Like you.
 
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