XxTwilightDashxX
Greenlighter
ok so ive been taking small to average doses of DXM over the corse of a few days - it start lats saturday, i took 1 5 oz bottle of delsyum witch is about 888Hbr but in pollistirex form. then on tuesday i took 20 15mg robo gelcaps for 300mg dxm - and 1 5oz bottle deslyum (888mg pollystirix) then thursday i took another 20 15mg robo 15mg dxm gels - friday i walked to the store. Bought 20 15mg dxm pills - took 10, then got a 8 oz bottle of generic DM syrup with about 470mg dxm - took 1/3 of it. Got a chocolate shake from mc,donalds which i had to walk about 4 miles to get cuz the main mc.Ds machine was down - took the other 10 robo gels -and another 1/3 of the syrup. walked home - mom picked me up half way. fun all night - next morning, was gona go to the maill - bout 10am - took remaining 1/3 dxm so about 150mg or so dxm - and then 1 bottle 5 oz delsym 888mg pollystirix. now it gets weird. All along those days - i had the normal audio music is cool, i can hear the cars incase any1 calls my name or honks. I can walk straight lines and stuff - all that - my pupils arnt dialated its all good. Body Function normal. no heart rate increase, not sweating. Wind is cool, but not freezing snow - and im fine. all week it was ok - felt like normal 2nd plateu trips. very calm and relaxing - very open and radiantly flowing. as if the world is on a nice scedule and tickng along just fine. stopping only when it needs to rest and refuel. Very peacefull, beautiful sky, people seem happy and alert. Very positive week. i know the mall is gona have tons of ppl - hopefully no security or ay ask if im on drugs O_O lol
Saturday though - i start feeling very calm, as if i need to mediatate myself, and relax myself. Im going to the mall. Gona be there a few hours, and im not sure if im gona be able to really talk to anybody. I feel kinda onipotent. as if im watching the world from cover, and documenting the human species and their interactions on this planet. I feel as if Im somehow entitled to be on this substance and to be left alone and do my own thing.
Nobody needs to ask if im ok or not, they will all assume im perfectly fine and just go about their lives. paying minimal attention to me, while i focus on them. I get to the mall... very hard to walk from the car my mom drops me off from - walk into the mall... walking along, trying to avoid people, and just stay in a straight line. I feel im really weird. my knees are not bending, they are only a foot long and on very soft botls moving me.. shufflinng me around. but my feet pick up and move in a simi-direcxt rhytem. I notice people around me are ok - everynow and then i make eye contact. and feel as if im trying to hard not to have the BUG EYED O_O looked on my face, but also not to had a angry scowl on my brow...
every1 seems to just walk past. its all good. I get across - to the escalator. some girls infront of me, and a few behind. I get off at the bottom to the lft knowing i cant slow down now - keep going and i walk outside. lota kids around here teenagers. Grab a cigg, light up puff puff - all good... walk over to a light post lean on it - few seconds latter, start to slide down it. eventualy im sittng at the bottom on it. i dont wanna get up or move. im fine here. Kids are lookin at me - i probly look odd here. evenetualy some move - i go to a bench - sit, light another cigg about 30min later - all good, windy, put my hood on... few min later it blows off my head - i dont put it back on. sun is just so bright i cant wait for it to go down behind the mountains. I cant see out my right eye cuz its all birght sun and all.
I eventualy get up -and sit next to the door - going from crossed legs style to legs proped up, to standing - last about 2 hours - eventuayly try to walk and stand up - cant. hold a pole to keep balence... just chillin - ppl notice me, but dont mind. (probably jelious of me lol) - i sit down again. moms gona cme back in about 30min - just waiting for her. been a weird day. Sat outside for like 4 hours not doing anything but watching people, listen to music, playing with my hands and feet, and just relaxing. sun starting to go down. some security is puting up signs - i see a cop come out of hios car to the mall into it - then back and leave -was a lil worried e was looking at me - but im fine - sun is til really bright, keep putting my hood on and tsking it off. the wind feels good on my neck and my hair. the music seems to last forever.
beautiful sky - the clouds and sun, mountains and all - its amazing how life flows in thoe world. even the kids doing their things - teenagers have their friends, their groups - im happy everyone seems to have this happy human connection - its amazing how alive and bright we are, yet so many of the"adults" try to drag us down and tell us wat we cant do.
Its seems so unfair sometimes we just want to do our thing and be happy with friends, but someone always has to remind us of being normal or doing the right thing in the world. I just sit and watch it happen - powerless to help them, but motivated enough to watch out for myself at least or anyone who calls for my help.
what do you guys think? you ever have these kind of long drawn out experiances? where u walk around engaging with your family and minor people for a week - and then one day just stop and watchh the rest of the world fly by. not my choice, but becuaxe you just can not move any more. you need to sit down, and stop talking. listen to music0 and see what other people do for a change... it feels amazing - im not even uste how to explain the after effects that night, vision was so blurred, but i just wanted to hear music and things i was familer with it. awesome.
as time wound down i wasnt so tired, i put on music, and tried to txt some ppl online - n0t manny on - talked in a few chat rooms on PS3 and PS home - not much - just felt very alive and hot. energy flowing around me like a lava lamp or something with with the heart of a tesla coil - all sparky and bright, and colorful - it feels so good even now as i havnt had any for over 24hours - i still feels the calm, cool air around me. its a beautiful thing our senses - so magical and joyful - the music and taste and feelings on our skin. The human body is an amazing vessel of energy and hope in which i can trvael many light years away, and never leave my bedroom ^_^ music is going like 2 times faster then normal - its playing very fast, but at the right sound - just seems to play quikcker, but also last twice as long as the song duration normaly is- its fine. i love these songs,. goa trance is amazing when im on this stuff - it connects me to the universe =^.^=
Saturday though - i start feeling very calm, as if i need to mediatate myself, and relax myself. Im going to the mall. Gona be there a few hours, and im not sure if im gona be able to really talk to anybody. I feel kinda onipotent. as if im watching the world from cover, and documenting the human species and their interactions on this planet. I feel as if Im somehow entitled to be on this substance and to be left alone and do my own thing.
Nobody needs to ask if im ok or not, they will all assume im perfectly fine and just go about their lives. paying minimal attention to me, while i focus on them. I get to the mall... very hard to walk from the car my mom drops me off from - walk into the mall... walking along, trying to avoid people, and just stay in a straight line. I feel im really weird. my knees are not bending, they are only a foot long and on very soft botls moving me.. shufflinng me around. but my feet pick up and move in a simi-direcxt rhytem. I notice people around me are ok - everynow and then i make eye contact. and feel as if im trying to hard not to have the BUG EYED O_O looked on my face, but also not to had a angry scowl on my brow...
every1 seems to just walk past. its all good. I get across - to the escalator. some girls infront of me, and a few behind. I get off at the bottom to the lft knowing i cant slow down now - keep going and i walk outside. lota kids around here teenagers. Grab a cigg, light up puff puff - all good... walk over to a light post lean on it - few seconds latter, start to slide down it. eventualy im sittng at the bottom on it. i dont wanna get up or move. im fine here. Kids are lookin at me - i probly look odd here. evenetualy some move - i go to a bench - sit, light another cigg about 30min later - all good, windy, put my hood on... few min later it blows off my head - i dont put it back on. sun is just so bright i cant wait for it to go down behind the mountains. I cant see out my right eye cuz its all birght sun and all.
I eventualy get up -and sit next to the door - going from crossed legs style to legs proped up, to standing - last about 2 hours - eventuayly try to walk and stand up - cant. hold a pole to keep balence... just chillin - ppl notice me, but dont mind. (probably jelious of me lol) - i sit down again. moms gona cme back in about 30min - just waiting for her. been a weird day. Sat outside for like 4 hours not doing anything but watching people, listen to music, playing with my hands and feet, and just relaxing. sun starting to go down. some security is puting up signs - i see a cop come out of hios car to the mall into it - then back and leave -was a lil worried e was looking at me - but im fine - sun is til really bright, keep putting my hood on and tsking it off. the wind feels good on my neck and my hair. the music seems to last forever.
beautiful sky - the clouds and sun, mountains and all - its amazing how life flows in thoe world. even the kids doing their things - teenagers have their friends, their groups - im happy everyone seems to have this happy human connection - its amazing how alive and bright we are, yet so many of the"adults" try to drag us down and tell us wat we cant do.
Its seems so unfair sometimes we just want to do our thing and be happy with friends, but someone always has to remind us of being normal or doing the right thing in the world. I just sit and watch it happen - powerless to help them, but motivated enough to watch out for myself at least or anyone who calls for my help.
what do you guys think? you ever have these kind of long drawn out experiances? where u walk around engaging with your family and minor people for a week - and then one day just stop and watchh the rest of the world fly by. not my choice, but becuaxe you just can not move any more. you need to sit down, and stop talking. listen to music0 and see what other people do for a change... it feels amazing - im not even uste how to explain the after effects that night, vision was so blurred, but i just wanted to hear music and things i was familer with it. awesome.
as time wound down i wasnt so tired, i put on music, and tried to txt some ppl online - n0t manny on - talked in a few chat rooms on PS3 and PS home - not much - just felt very alive and hot. energy flowing around me like a lava lamp or something with with the heart of a tesla coil - all sparky and bright, and colorful - it feels so good even now as i havnt had any for over 24hours - i still feels the calm, cool air around me. its a beautiful thing our senses - so magical and joyful - the music and taste and feelings on our skin. The human body is an amazing vessel of energy and hope in which i can trvael many light years away, and never leave my bedroom ^_^ music is going like 2 times faster then normal - its playing very fast, but at the right sound - just seems to play quikcker, but also last twice as long as the song duration normaly is- its fine. i love these songs,. goa trance is amazing when im on this stuff - it connects me to the universe =^.^=
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