I've always been the strongest person in my group of friends. Whenever a friend has a problem, I was always the go to person for advices and for comfort. I never turned people away when they needed help and for me helping made me feel great and it is my attitude to not expect anything in return but a strong bond of friendship.
I was never really hooked into drugs but I was a recreational user up until December of last year where I took way too much of what supposedly was mdma (untested so it could've been mixed with something else) which resulted to a long term come down. I'd say I am a lot better now but I just can't get rid of this one very annoying symptom which is this weird movement in my head like blood is flowing everywhere and sometimes, it will make me feel anxious even though I am not. It's really weird and it could be anxiety but I refuse to take any SSRI. I will suck it up until I recover.
How am I going to survive? I have pretty much struggled since I was a child getting sick with diseases (H-fever, stomach problems, measles) or being kicked out with my family because of my aunt being jealous with my mom, or being bullied in high school by cheerleaders. Looking back at all of these during this comedown I thought "Well if I survived those diseases then I should be able to survive this too right?" After all, this is not a disease, it is just a temporary chemical imbalance in my brain. This is why I will survive. I will survive because I am a survivor. I am a strong woman and always will be.
I was never really hooked into drugs but I was a recreational user up until December of last year where I took way too much of what supposedly was mdma (untested so it could've been mixed with something else) which resulted to a long term come down. I'd say I am a lot better now but I just can't get rid of this one very annoying symptom which is this weird movement in my head like blood is flowing everywhere and sometimes, it will make me feel anxious even though I am not. It's really weird and it could be anxiety but I refuse to take any SSRI. I will suck it up until I recover.
How am I going to survive? I have pretty much struggled since I was a child getting sick with diseases (H-fever, stomach problems, measles) or being kicked out with my family because of my aunt being jealous with my mom, or being bullied in high school by cheerleaders. Looking back at all of these during this comedown I thought "Well if I survived those diseases then I should be able to survive this too right?" After all, this is not a disease, it is just a temporary chemical imbalance in my brain. This is why I will survive. I will survive because I am a survivor. I am a strong woman and always will be.
