Average Whiteboy
Bluelighter
This is my life
Filled with frustration and strife
Sad, but angry eyes and a heart filled with hate
Using a smile as my disguise, to carry the weight
I try to be wise, but I fail to do so
Unrational thoughts attack the brain, and make my thoughts move slow
So my instincts take over
Drug benders, I refuse to stay sober
Because the pain gets deeper as I get older
I roam the streets every night
I've paid my price, still don't have anything
This can't be right
Sometimes it seems like this isn't fair
But I guess this what I gotta do to get there
There? What is there? Where is there?
It must be where peace of mind is
But the pain and suffering has left me blinded
I contemplate if I belong here, because I'm always a victim
I speak out, but my words fall on deaf ears, will somebody listen?
My life is always changing, I can't figure out who the fuck I am
I forget the pain with getting so high I can barely stand
I once had plans, to be the man
And get the world in the palm of my hand
But I lost my spirit, and I forgot who I was
It wasn't a lack of motivation, but a lack of love
Forget it, I don't need it, it's all good though
From now on, I've got no love to show
So I continue on my way on a path not traveled by most
I don't know my station in life, I'm trying to find my post
The pain continues to bring me down
It slowly begins to dig my grave in the ground
It turns my sunshine into darkness, leaving me bitter and heartless
As my everlasting flame dies, becoming sparkless
Evil demons have been torturing my soul
After years my insanity has begun to unfold
As the life is sucked out of me, and at the booth of purgatory I pay my last toll
One last time through my memories I stroll
Filled with frustration and strife
Sad, but angry eyes and a heart filled with hate
Using a smile as my disguise, to carry the weight
I try to be wise, but I fail to do so
Unrational thoughts attack the brain, and make my thoughts move slow
So my instincts take over
Drug benders, I refuse to stay sober
Because the pain gets deeper as I get older
I roam the streets every night
I've paid my price, still don't have anything
This can't be right
Sometimes it seems like this isn't fair
But I guess this what I gotta do to get there
There? What is there? Where is there?
It must be where peace of mind is
But the pain and suffering has left me blinded
I contemplate if I belong here, because I'm always a victim
I speak out, but my words fall on deaf ears, will somebody listen?
My life is always changing, I can't figure out who the fuck I am
I forget the pain with getting so high I can barely stand
I once had plans, to be the man
And get the world in the palm of my hand
But I lost my spirit, and I forgot who I was
It wasn't a lack of motivation, but a lack of love
Forget it, I don't need it, it's all good though
From now on, I've got no love to show
So I continue on my way on a path not traveled by most
I don't know my station in life, I'm trying to find my post
The pain continues to bring me down
It slowly begins to dig my grave in the ground
It turns my sunshine into darkness, leaving me bitter and heartless
As my everlasting flame dies, becoming sparkless
Evil demons have been torturing my soul
After years my insanity has begun to unfold
As the life is sucked out of me, and at the booth of purgatory I pay my last toll
One last time through my memories I stroll
