this is how it fucking is.

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

He tells you that he'll see you at the show.
Instantly you invision what happened last year when the same words were repeated from the same mouth, and you instantly feel sick.
You don't want to see him on lot with her.
Again.
You have to take his word, this time.
He told you things when he didn't have to.
And you can't go fuck it up because of something in the past.
You know better, you know to move on from things.
But you fear that it is him you should move on from.
The emotions he gives you are scary to you because you have never been able to feel absolutely great, absolutely nothing, or absolutely like a piece of shit in a matter of minutes.
And perhaps that's what intrigues you.
He intrigues you.
And you know he loves you.
In the only way he'd know how,
and how you could return the feelings.
You have never felt so fucking high before.
And as you watch him dance around.
You realize that you love him because he is real.
He is not like the others.
In any fucking way of the word.
This-is-how-it-fucking-is-attitude.
More than you,
and you love that.
And I know that everyday that goes by,
when you don't speak to him,
or hear from him, it drives you crazy.
Because you think that he will leave you.
All you want to do is be with him.
Whenever.
Even if you feel like you can't stand him sometimes.

 

[Cosmic Mist]

Wow... i really like this. Probably because i can relate to it. I especially like the way you chose to end it. Nice twist there.

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

Agreed, theres a lot of conflict coming out in your work lately, I hope things can resolve themselves for you. Love to see you writing tho!

 

[Free Radical]

"You realize that you love him because he is real.
He is not like the others.
In any fucking way of the word.
This-is-how-it-fucking-is-attitude.

i know i made someone feel like that before....

and tho she didn't show it, im sure she was crushed when i chose someone else.

if i could do things over i definitly wouldn'tve made the same choice, cuz shallow cunts tend to cheat on you with your best friend.
i got my just desserts tho

 

[cherub]

okay i read this and your next piece,, both made me cry,, i couldnt even respond last night,,,,, girl you come across with that raw emotions that just pours out in your writting.. hurtful but amazing write

 

[pennywise]

i may be mistaken...but every thing i read of yours has something to do with relationships and i was wondering if you ever write about anything else?

no offense, just curious.

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

I take no offense to anything you write.
But to be honest with you,
everything I write is about about my fucked up drug related relationships.

It's the only thing that gives me 'drive' to write.

I'd like to, and I have tried to, write about other things...
but the only thing that comes out so strong in my mind is those mentioned above.
It's the only things in my life.
Whether it be me striving for something else or not....
it's the only time I have words.

Drunken, drugged, fucked relations are my only solice in life.
As of right now.
And being here, and finding someone to relate makes me feel human in life.

I have nothing else to say.