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this is good bye

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Cheers everyone feeling a little bit more human today it's a week since the mdpv psychosis kicked off all the problems with my mental health but still a little scared to say the least had voices coming out of the tv Satan shouting at me through it

Other ones telling me how I had killed a couple of people and the police were coming to arrest me :(

I really do not want to leave just think it is the best thing to do while I get some proper help Been suicidal because of this and after knocks passing that should of been the last thing on my mind

Once again cheers for the kind words

And raas you fucking Muppet think before you post paedophilia really don't associate me or my threads with that shit ok you Jesus crispy idiot

Getting my new computer later today hopefully so be back then hate this Kindle fire thing
 
Good to see you FG, sounds fucking frightening what you have been going through. I can't even begin to imagine how it must feel.
Take care of yourself
 
Cheers max something just snapped I mean ever since I over dosed at Christmas it's been down hill mentally 3months nonstop usage and snap brain mush lol :)

Anyway any ones my email pm me and I'll give it to you
 
Try and lay off that mdpv, from what I have read on here it doesn't seem to do much good for peoples mental health.
I hope you can get yourself some good help FG and get back to feeling how you want to be.
 
Well I don't know you, I've spotted your posts around whilst browsing yesterday after almost 2.5 years absence!

I suffered from Drug-Induced Psychosis/Schizophrenia for almost 3 years until last summer. For almost 2 months I remember constantly thinking I was hearing knocking, multiple voices & thought the police were coming to get & was suicidal amongst other fun things... it will get better.

If you want to talk to someone who has been through it before you sign off, give me a PM!

Taking a break was necessary for me because however great a community Bluelight is, the temptation to take drugs is just too much whilst regularly browsing.

Best of luck :)
 
^^ cheers may just do that at some point :)

I think it's the diphenidine more than anything that has caused this the blackouts and breakdowns came from that

The mdpv psychosis just kicked it all off
 
Best of luck to you FG, hope you get better soon, to start off with reading through this i was worried it was a different kind of goodbye.. please dont
 
Cheers phantasm n yer a little more than I realized n dnt worry I am not suicidal at the moment last yes but that was the psychosis more than anything

Going for my new computer later so will pop in for chat then :)

Worst part it's payday tomorrow and that's when the stress will start Sat knowing I've got funds .

And in case I forget it's nicks birthday tomorrow so dnt miss it people :)
 
 
foolsgold said:
Hello everyone the time has come for me to move on with things and my mental health is not getting any better

So to all my friends thank you for all the support and advice over the last few years

All the best everyone :)
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^ Listen to Flo's songs, she has taste.

Other than that....man, who else on here am I going to speak to about Mick Easterby? Or Malton? Or the shit that John Squires became?

Good luck man. Stay cool. You'll get there.

<3
 
Whatever you do don't listen to them there songs..it was a tribute to FG's posting style which I shall miss...however the lack of quality tunes with the word byeee in is seriously lacking! The tuneshere are in no way representative of any bodies musical taste..no matter how much gear you have snortled, shoved up or down and around <3
 
Dont quit BL....just take a nice long break mate. At least your at the point where you know what you need to do. Be strong and stay away from the drugs until your heads back on the level. Once the voices fuck off get into exercise....................take cake.....ooooops typo. Take care!
 
really this is getting to me now so many kind words I am not use to this kind of thing making me well up here going to listen to flos tribute to me in a while just got a new lap top so sorting that out at the minute [video=youtube_share;f4V_5khp7ow]http://youtu.be/f4V_5khp7ow[/video]
 
Bearlove said:
Good Luck Foolsgold - (don't scramble your password just don't log on - that way if you need to speak to somebody late at night then you know you always have this place to fall back on).
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Truthemboldened.

I mentioned the p/w scrambling thing cos some people really do want to make a clean break and find an ongoing BL to be triggering or in some other way to be a problem. However, I couldn't agree more with Bear when it comes to having an ongoing BL account that people know and can easily connect to a person is a very handy thing indeed during those occasional long, dark nights of the soul we all have from time to time. People really do care - don't doubt it for a second, FG - and that can sometimes come in very handy.

Take whatever time you need, do whatever you need to do, and know you are always gonna be welcomed and supported here should you ever be in the vicinity <3
 
cheers shambles and nick and well everyone else :) this is not making it easier but that's life in nit lol :)

tomorrow is going to be the toughest part payday but I think it would be pushing things to even think of smoking weed let alone any other kind of drug intake
 
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